I LOVE GREEN DAY. (:

basia leaving.

2005-10-28T00:25:00.000-07:00

HELLO! (:
last day of school.
holidays are here mann, whoots!

today//
woke up very very late.
and, was late for school too.
came at exactly 7.25 though.
oh well.
had mass in the morning.
sat with hui yun and adeline.
and stephanie, haha.
it was so retardedly fun.
went for recess after that.
sat with michelle and yu feng.
crapped and all, it was crazy.
went back to class.
played uno with eewen, wendy, hanis.
crapped with yu feng, again! hah.
collected our report book.
i dont think i did that badly.. but heh.
went to parkway after school with eewen.
brought her to andrew's, hah.
met sherry, josephine and vanessa.
took bus together, they went back to school.
and now im here. home!

talking to eugene now.
ooh ooh, i love you! HAHA.
hugs are warm and nice.
anyway.
gonna send basia off later.
meeting the cell at abt 9, airport.
im gonna miss her! rahh.
have to get her a present.
damn, i forgot.
jus now jia jun reminded me..
rahh. too late anyway.
will jus write her a real nice letter.
or someth.
bah, i got nothing else to blog.
tata~!

`when im gone by no adress.

rainy.

2005-10-27T07:32:00.000-07:00

october.
is such, a rainy month.

today//
school, as usual.
mr meyer said some stuff.
and it got me thinking.
and slightly annoyed at myself.
rahh! its stupid.
so today, jess and i didnt play anyth.
we were busy reading.
haha, good books mann!
but damn, i left it at school.
oh well. anyway.
sze hui invited me to her birthday.
how cute! haha.
but its on saturday.
i obviously cant make it.
but nice of her to invite me.
so after school:
went home with jas, carissa and diyana.
rested and all at home.
shannon called, i didnt answer though.
he messaged me.
to look out the window, and i'll see some guys.
which, obviously, one of them him.
i ignored it. hah.
then left home at abt 5 to go parkway.
met lydia, jian xin. and zhi yang later.
went to orchard for dinner.
the bus ride was hilarious.
was dancing away to jian xin's ipod.
singing too, heh.
we were such a nuisance lar.
reached somerset, saw aunt moi hong and enci.
been a long time.
went for dinner at cineleisure.
some japanese place.
lydia and i werent very hungry.
so the guys ate at the jap place.
while lydia and i went to buy famous amos.
heh! made lame lame jokes throughout dinner.
walked around cine.
went to pee like so many times. hah.
decided to go back to parkway.
bus ride, again, was mad.
jian xin wanted coffee BAD, so went to starbucks.
and we were doing accents!
well, imitating.
from african-american to southern.
i swear, it was sooo funny.
and we were good kay! hah.
after that, we left.
waited for bus with jian xin.
damn, he's such a great friend.
and victim of bully, and crapper, blah blah.
reached home abt nine plus.
didnt rain yet, thank god.

think zhi yang got caught in the rain though.
he had to ride his bike home.
cuz he had to pick it up from somewhere.
ahh, the poor thing.
hope he's okaie. hmm.
called geovenn jus now.
been a long time since we last spoke.
yea so anyway.
talking to eugene now.
haha. love of my life. LOL.
mom's going to malaysia tmr.
geo going there on saturday.
basia going china tmr.
damn, i'll miss her alot.
and charlene to bangkok sometime soon.
aww, holidaying!
wish i could go to new york, damn.
i miss theresa!
didnt see her today, sad.
andrew said he screwed up his physics prac.
shoot, he seems so depressed.
i feel so idiotic, i cant help him.
rahh! oh well.
hope he gets better soon.
ulu blog updated.
its urgent, so members.. go!

`colours by crossfade.

pretty good day.

2005-10-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

stupid blogger.
i posted jus now.
but it didnt come out.
the whole post gone.
i should save next time..

today//
woke up late for school.
but made it in time, haha.
watched the end bride and prejudice.
and the chinese movie too.
am ranked 9th in class for end year.
guess thats not bad..
played some weird game for math.
and uno for the rest of the day.
had chem lesson, only.
im telling my life day-story! wow!
annoying.
anyway, after school.
went with jessica to parkway.
she wanted to look for books!
so i brought her to andrew's shop.
and she got a nice book. haha.
ate lunch at macs.
talked abt new york, manhatten!
soudnds great.
basia messaged me.
asked to go meet up with jian xin and theresa.
and her, of course.
so i sent jessica off first.
then met basia at the fountain.
called zhi yang to come also.
danae couldnt make it, sad.
walked to the library.
met jian xin, theresa, nicholas and nelson.
jian xin is going for older women!
he was flirting with a 40 year old, haha.
no lar. jus kidding.
he was "helping" her with some stuff. right.
theresa and i raped jian xin. attack, rather.
grabbed his ipod and all.
anyway, zhi yang arrived.
and started reading some spiderman comic.
aww, so cute!
so left the library.
punched zhi yang real hard.
sorry mann, you asked for it though! hah.
i feel bad though, it hurt alot, apparently.
theresa, jian xin, nelson and nicholas went to parkway.
to play pool!
while basia, zhi yang and i went to bedok.
ate at macs, again.
watched flight plan.
pretty good movie, i guess.
so then went home. (:

chatting with lydia, basia and my sis now.
planning for tmr's dinner.
and saying abt how much ulu tsunami.
lame, i know.
supposed to go out with sis tmr.
but i dun have moola! damn.
so jus dinner with ulu i guess. (:
which will be fun, obviously.
oh mann. whats with me today?
i sound so annoying.
ronny wants to marry me.
haha. what an ass.
anyway.
holidays next week mann!
whoots! cant wait.
need to call rainie for an outing.
and of course, prash. (x

`burning bright by shinedown.

bored, bored, bored.

2005-10-25T07:35:00.000-07:00

IM ULTRA BORED.
thus the second post.

im listening to funkaye songs though.
go hear them too:
the dolphins cry by live.
satellites by september.
burning bright by shinedown.

okok. BYE.

`the dolphins cry by live.

ulu outing?

2005-10-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

tired, sleepy, annoyed. annoyed.
cant wait till the holidays.

today//
walked to school with yu feng.
skipped geog lesson, haha.
we couldnt be bothered to go up.
soo.. stayed in class. yea.
watched half of 2 movies.
my schoolmate, the babarian.
its some chinese movie, its nice though!
and bride and prejudice.
haha, thats a funny show.
played monopoly with jess, keshia and cassie.
and some marble game thing.
nearing end of school, played charades.
retardedly funny.
with catherine, nicole, jasmine.. etc.
after school was stupid.
me, eewen, lok to, alison, hanis and wendy.
went to parkway.
IN THE BLOODY RAIN.
it was raining like alot. alot alot.
flooding! literally.
i was drenched when we reached parkway.
so annoying.
met lydia, theresa, danae and zhi yang. (:
and saw ivan! haha.
rachel couldnt come today.
went to the food court to eat.
thanks for buying for me, zhi yang! heh.
walked around.
then decided to go to my house.
lydia and zhi yang stayed at the lobby.
they were scared of my dog. HEH.
but theresa and danae were in love with her.
visited mrs lui on the way to ecp.
im so unlucky!
i got mud all over my flip flops.
so annoying.
but anyway.
played with the water and all. fun!
my butt was all wet though.
but oh well, it was really fun.
danae went home first.
and we, the rest, went to parkway.
ate at macs.
then i went home.

so here i am then.
too full to eat dinner here.
deleting photos in ulu's photo album.
so many unecessary ones.
kinda stupid, really. lol.
yvonne thinks that i told clare to tag.
and yulica they all.
but i didnt. lol. really.
they tagged at their own will.
melody and feng believe me so..
the truth has a way of coming up.

stupid desmond.
still in the usa holidaying.
while im stuck here.
i miss him.
stupid big fat hairy monkaye!

stupid girl of a sister.
didnt tell me abt benjamin and kenneth.
lol. she owes me..
she better be free tmr.
i. need. to. watch. a. movie.
i need to go out, period.
pray that it wont rain tmr!

`blurry by puddle of mudd.

dead tired.

2005-10-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

dead tired.
but hey, the days were fun. (:

yesterday//
met lydia, danae and zhi yang for lunch.
went to harvey norman first.
to buy the portable speakers for the ipot! hah.
then went to popular.
to buy danae's art supplies.
ooh, funkaye.
then went for lunch at macs.
yes, again.
looked through the logos.
couldnt agree on them, haha.
met cell at 3.
matthew and dillian didnt come, sad!
didnt go ecp in the end.
hung around near the octopus.
MY. PANTS. RIPPED.
not at the rear, thank god.
somewhere along the pocket side.
haha it was so dumb.
lydia and danae tried using masking tape.
to cover the rip.
it obviously didnt work.
but oh well, it was seriously crazy.
had icebreaker, some retarded game.
then worship. (:
chao yang gor and jason came.
then had CELL.
it was fun, as usual.
thanksgiving this time.
then went for service.
i could jump! despite my jeans! haha.
rev melvyn spoke today.
went for dinner after, at some coffee shop.
i was crazy with jian xin.
CRAZY I TELL YOU, CRAZY!
singing songs and dancing.
fuck, im in love with his ipod.
you shoulda seen his songs in it!
went to order shirts for the big move at church.
then had cell again.
same place, it was wow.
had a bigggg sharing on our probs.
and basia told us her experiences.
very good. *nods.
went home with danae, 10 plus. heh!

TODAY//
lunch with parents, parkway.
walked around after, searching for my nikes.
(: found but buying another time.
met lydia, theresa, danae and zhi yang.
at the same place. haha.
yang was late! we attacked him.
went to buy bubble tea. haha.
called jason, abt his friend shop.
took bus to dhoby ghaut.
then train to queensway, bus to the mall.
ran around in search of andrew's shop.
heh, retarded.
keep singing with theresa.
spreading God's word mann! haha!
it was really retarded.
took bus to bugis after.
such a long way to go mann.
from bugis, took a train to somerset.
then took neos at heeran!
all squished together. it was fun.
wanted to take twice but no moola.
so yeaps, went home after. (:
had steak for dinner. like, yum.

so here i am.
lydia sent me all the pics we took.
nice mann! haha.
gonna update ulu's blog soon.
yup yup.
tmr's back to school, urghh!
whatever.
holidays are coming.
and thats my only consolation. (x
ulu: the best friends you could ever have.
thanks guys. <3

THANKS JIAN XIN.
for everyth you've done for me.
love you lots bro.

THANKS LYDIA.
i love you. (:

THANKS THERESA!!
my darling princess.
i love you!

THANKS ZHI YANG.
you pebble. (x

update.

2005-10-19T08:13:00.000-07:00

update, new poem.

depression.

2005-10-17T05:05:00.000-07:00

someth is seriously wrong with me.
im glad you hadn't noticed.

is it like, normal for people to blog like this.
over and over?
like every once a fucking week.
a so called, 'depressing' post.
either way, this sucks.

i hate him i hate him i hate him!
i hate HER too.
for crying out loud, whats with you both?
might as well elope to bloody china right.
its so obvious what you're trying to do.
come on mann, im dumb i know, but no THAT dumb.
even a fugging baboon will understand.
how can anyone be this low?
so unfairly judgemental.
its not my problem but hell, it sucks.

you want me to feel the wrath of YOU.
and what the hell is that supposed to mean?
lies and lies and more lies!
he's gullible, and you keep feeding him.
you are a serious bitch.
im so sorry for my coarse language but DAMN YOU.
you didnt ruin my life, sorry.
but you made it worse.
worse than it already bloody is.
no, on second thought, my life is perfect.
really it is.
or maybe its jus you ignorant people.
who mistook my "hyperness" and such, as happiness.
alright alright, my mistake.
blaming it on you innocent people.
MANN, shut me up.

ok i so hate this.
i hate saying this.
getting pity and all that shit.
"ruth, you ok? you sound pissed."
HELL YES, IM PISSED.
im annoyed beyond words.
wtf is the world's problem?
you dont do this to stupid people like me.
go test it on dumb animals!
firstly, i do not need pity.
secondly, i am sucidal again.
where did that come from?

oh go away you no brained things.
im sadistic and suicidal.
WOW. make me happy, someone?

`i miss you by blink 182.

home bored.

2005-10-17T03:09:00.000-07:00

I GOT GOSSIP GIRL!
hah, in your face punk.
yea ok.

been bored at home.
urghh.
woke up 12 plus, killed the morning.
in a rather exciting way, sleep.
im so wordy today, heh. lalalala.
watched teevee.
went to parkway for a while.
watched teevee.
ate orange.
watched teevee.
sighh, IM SICK.
as in, sick sick. cold sick.
hate being sick. urghh.

whatever, im annoying.
talking to ivan now.
and danae's bro jus now. heh!

ok guess what.
i have nothing to blog abt!
WOW. revelation!

`helena by my chemical romance.

i love saturdays.

2005-10-16T04:07:00.000-07:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO!
and i have returned.
announcement: zhi yang is retarded.

these few days has been awesome.
except for 2 hours of it.
thats when i saw lester. RAHH.
that sucked.

friday//
had math paper two.
bloody hell, it was horrible.
wayyy horrible. suckish. urghh.
chinese list compre was ok. (:
think im gonna pass chinese.
for eng oral i had lingesh.
RAHH, i was a spastic lar.
it was really bad.
for chi oral i had mdm lu. happy!
after school:
went with sis to the skin centre thing.
so bloody long.
waited and waited..
boring lar.
walked to novena mrt.
trained to dhoby ghaut.
sis went home, i went to parkway.
met theresa and basia for a while.
then went to plaza sing.
met mabel and pas victor. (:
ate dinner.
watched the skeleton key.
i like the ending, its unpredictable.
unless you're one of those people.
who thinks that the good guy always loses.
then you'll always have an unpredictable ending.
but this time you wont.
YAY, thats my fucked up theory.
went home around ten plus.

YESTERDAY//
met lydia, theresa and wang yi at my bus stop.
went to parkway for lunch.
was crazy, as usual.
saw jian xin. (:
walked around. boring, again.
then sent wang yi to her bus stop.
met the cell outside church.
jia jun, jian xin, charlene, adrina, lester, marcus.
matthew was dunno where.
basia was late! heh.
went to ecp for fellowship.
i cried. ):
haha. was like, 'heartbroken' or someth lar.
dont ask.
fuck lar, why why why..
lol. anyway.
rushed back to church, we were late!
had to sit at the balcony.
matthew was dunno where, again.
THEN THE FUN BEGAN.
after service.
zhi yang went mad. mad like madman mad.
it was so superly funny.
jason did some wiggle, hah!
went for dinner at burger king.
zhi yang, jian xin, jia jun and i were crazy.
we were so loud!
made many people pissed, i'll bet.
went to octopus after that.
went crazy again and again..
mann, it was fugging fun balls.
went home abt 11. mmm.
such a fun day. (:

THANKS ZHI YANG.
for lending me your ipod. (:
you're awesome, loves!

today//
went for lunch with family.
at parkway.
then met theresa and lydia.
sis wanted to join us.
then zhi yang came. ((:
sis felt left out so.. she left. heh.
theresa went to meet deon.
so me, zhi yang and lydia went to orchard!
and it was raining. sighh.
went to cine.
wanted to watch corpse bride, but urghh.
they didnt show it.
so walked around..
bought cookies. yum.
went to eat downstairs, some food court.
then went to heeran.
twice, ran in the rain.
walked around, took neoprints!
HAHAHA. zhi yang has bunny ears.
it was hilarious.
walked around some more.
called jian xin to join us, but he's busy.
so too bad. ):
went to parkway after.
ate at macs.
planned for ULU!
i went off first, so here i am.
heh.

yulica wants to intro me to nicholas.
some guy she met yesterday.
yay? haha.
andrew and i are erm. drifting.
its sad, really.
i dunno what the hell happened..
urghh.
im too annoyed to talk abt it.
geovenn is a bloody liar.
ok so anyway..
supposed to meet yulica and clare tmr.
not sure whether i can anymore.
sighh.
NEED. GOSSIP. GIRL.
nicole is being a bloody mean ass.
whatever, im annoyed.

`more than words by westlife.

mugging.

2005-10-09T00:30:00.000-07:00

no greeting today.
okok, meow!

urghh. im still so sleepy.
as usual, woke up MANY times before offically waking up.
at abt 10 min ago. hurhur.
ok i have nothing to blog abt.

lunch later with parents.
then home to studaye. for stupid chem!
thank god i have the day off tmr.
chem on tues, geog on wed.
if im not wrong.
and chinese oral somewhere. english too.

i need a new blogskin lar.

`worry rock by green day.

ultra ultra fun day!!

2005-10-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOO!!
i love my princesses theresa and lydia. (:

today//
was so ultra fun.
went for lunch with mom and dad.
at siglap.
then walked around siglap centre.
after, dad dropped me off at church.
basia and charlene were the only ones there.
HEH. everyone else was late.
but anyway.
jia jun couldnt make it today.
so magnes (rahh!) and BEN GOR took his place.
went to the void deck for cell.
fun fun! was really crazy.
adrina, nicholas and kerin came too..
went for service after.
extremely good.
saw all my schoolmates mann.
xinni, natasha, serene, jasmine, CLAIRE.
samantha, cheryl and si jia.
also saw mabel and chao yang gor. (:
SO AFTER SERVICE.
went for dinner!
at macs.
with THERESA, LYDIA, JIAN XIN and basia!
and danny boy! haha. new found friend.
basia left earlier. sob!
and the rest of us went MAD. seriously.
so so crazily fun.
i mean, one night and theresa and me can be so close.
haha. teamed up and bully jian xin!
im lazy to type lar, so go read her blog. (x
but bottom line is.
we're bonded. me, theresa, lydia, jian xin. danny boy.
cant wait to go out with them again.
AND PARTAYE BABEHH! cha cha.

im so tired now.
haha. so im really lazy to blog.
jus check theresa's. (:

`the grouch by green day.

depressing post?

2005-10-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

UPDATE, new poem. check the links.
-----------------X

another 'depressing' post.
brace yourselves. (:

im not hating life or anyth.
and neither am i sucidal, currently.
im not at a loss, mixed up emotions.
not feeling crappy, pissed, sad.
im jus being me and i hate that.

define yourself.
like say, describe yourself in 5 words.
what will you come up with?
loud, hyper, friendly, cheerful, annoying.
or maybe not.
is that what you really are?
or jus wanna be.

i have no idea why im saying all this.
and i dont think you understand neither.

many issues have been happening this week.
my sister with kenneth.
the exam 'stress'.
me and ignatius/andrew/lester/ivan.
that sounds so so wrong..
but then again. i suddenly dont care.

drew was talking abt life.
he said that life was boring.
no adventure, no meaning, etc.
he didnt know why he got up every morning
and its routine again.
school, home. school, home. school, home.

everyth he said was like, floating.
flying around, waiting for me to grab it.
but it seemed so distant. far away.
i mean, i know he's talking abt life and all.
but somehow, it doesnt connect.
maybe it jus doesnt apply in me or someth.
its more than that, i know.
i should wait till it reveals itself.

i think everyone goes through this eventually.
the who am i stage, why etc.
or maybe im jus a deformed fuck who's abnormal.
i vote for the latter.

exam stress.

2005-10-07T04:08:00.000-07:00

HOOBASHAGAHEEYAHO!
few announcements to make, firstly.
i miss clare, i love clare.
i miss yulica, i love yulica.

the week//
exams have been fucked up.
i mean, godd, todays's math was shit.
the whole class was pissed off.
i felt like kicking myself.
and jessica was screaming away on the bus.
social studies was pretty ok.
jus not enough stupid time.
biology was shit, dont ask.
literature is passable. quite good, really.
chinese paper one, negh.
chinese paper two, negh.

study breaks are really fun though. (:
and the after school lunch.
jessica, cassandra, keshia and me.
denise too, for studying.
its retarded, really. lol.
we talk abt mrs goh's vpl to mrs koh's fish face.
and friends. friends!
we've named each other after friends characters.
like jessica says i remind her of joey.
cuz of my hornaye jokes.
i cant help it if perverse is the root of humour!
and cassandra reminds me of phoebe.
smelly cat, smelly cat, what are they feeding you..
keshia is like chandler.
dont ask, i dont know why neither. she jus is.
and jessica is ROSS. ((x

i need a new blogskin.
everyone has a new one but me.

FUCK YOU LESTER.
GO TO FUCKING HELL BITCH.
FUCK YOU NAT.
GO AND DIE TOO LAR!
bloody cheebai.
you dared to fucking say that abt yulica.
she's all that then you what?
son of a bitch.

p.s, yulica, dont go!!

`king for a day by green day.

saddening.

2005-10-03T05:48:00.000-07:00

OK THIS SUCKS. (:

school was boring, as usual.
not gonna elaborate. cuz its boring!

but anyway, i shall release my inner thoughts.

to my bestfriend. YULICA!
im so bloody afraid to talk to you abt this.
so, the cowardly me, decided to post it.
oh god, shoot me.
but anyway, love, yea.
its abt HIM. you know who.
that guy, who apparently is not worthy of erm, me.
i mean, i know, i did give you the choice.
of whether you wanted to talk to him or not.
not my prob, it shouldnt be.
but honestly, i feel slightly uncomfortable.
but its my fault i suppose, i shouldnt ask anymore.
i hope this doesnt affect our relationship babe.
i love you more than anyth. (:

CLARE,
thanks lady.
you're going on a bloody rampage. haha.
i love you!!
you're my everything.

`music of the night, phantom of the opera.

ice cream.

2005-10-02T01:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO. (:

woke up eleven plus.
used to comp for a short while.
talked to my yulica. hurhur.

LUNCH, at marina square.
with mom and dad.
then ice cream at swensens.
disappointing, their service sucked.
but ice cream good.

so home now.
gonna study later, haha.
talking to EUGENE.
my long lost love. <3
SIGHH. yea right.
he lost his one dollar coin some time ago.
and found it now under his laptop.
its funny.
this is his equation:

laptop + coin =missing coin
(-eugene use laptop)
X curiousity = 2x(eureka i found my coin)

DESMOND is going to the usa.
after his last paper.
the lucky monkaye.
he got back his phone.
but his mom took it away. HAH.

nothing much then.
i miss shashi! hurhur.
and the rest of that cell.
oh well.

`holiday by greenday.

pretty good day.

2005-10-01T06:00:00.000-07:00

IM RELIEVED.
godd, i feel so so good.

so for today//
didnt go for flag day.
woke up too late, etc.
lunch at siglap macs with mom and dad.
saw nadia.
thats abt it.
went home to wash up.

then went to parkway.
to meet the cell.
they were late, as usual.
but jian xin was there. (:
he didnt go flagging neither.
so we hung around waiting.
and he shared with me his probs.
basia they all finally came.
not very many people, really.
basia, jia jun, charlene, matthew, lydia and zhi yang.
and me and jian xin.
THATS ALL! hurhur.
but anyway, we still had fun.
didnt have time for a movie and all.
so went to the void deck for sharing.
i shared abt my week, and so did jian xin.
i think we were both the most ke lian. HAH.
then went back to church for service.
saw steffi and stefan! YAY.
they sat with us.
stefan is such a squishable thing.
we had so much fun in service!
adrina, kerin, vanessa, jian xin, stefan and me.
went down to the front.
jumped around, whooped, clapped, SANG.
lol. it was fun.
though during service i kept messaging.
CLARE, obviously.
chao yang gor was there. and jason.
so yea, service ended.
didnt go for dinner with them, sad.
instead i went with steffi and stefan.
burger king. yum?
stefan left earlier, he had a headache.
so. dinner, then home.
and here i am.
blogging abt my day. lalala.

THANKS MATTHEW!
for the encouragement. (:

zhi yang is really funny.

`hitchin' a ride by green day.

wrecked.

2005-09-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

firstly, the thank you's.

CLARE;
YULICA;
MABEL;
PRASH;
ANDREW;
JIAN XIN;

ok thats it. (:

i shoulda seen it coming.
and maybe i could have done someth abt it.
seriously.
i guess im pretty dumb, hurhur.

i'll start from the beginning.
to my bored people who actually READ this.

monday//
had english exam.
its not hard, neither is it easy. yea.
thats not relevant, but hah.
NIGHT;
i was happily watching teevee.
happily eating cookies.
happily drinking coke.
then, my dad came barging it.
its the usual mess lar.
shout shout, slap slap, hit hit.
TA-DAH! instant pain.
then i got the message. THE MESSAGE.
wtf? my night sucked.
and i snapped.
totally totally went bonkers, snapped.
i called yulica.
told her to take care, etc.
and i guess she knew where i was heading.
the next thing i knew, we were hysterical.
screaming, crying, bleeding, coughing.
not in that order, but yea.
it was hell. literally.
i bled SO MUCH, (honest) that it was alot lar.
lol. i mean it kinda soaked the sheets.
i blacked out.
seriously.
its either that or i went into a deep deep sleep.
like fuck deep sleep.
when i "woke up" i was pretty shocked.
oh well. im still alive.

its not really finished. continue tuesday-->

tuesday//
after school met up with mabel.
had lunch at parkway, burger king.
then met jian xin and adrina.
went over to my house.
and FUCK, that woman called my mom and told her.
abt what i wanted to do, etc.
what i planned to do anyway.
which is yea, worse than monday. jump.
i planned it. so perfectly.
but anyway, plans ruined.

im not sure what to feel, really.
am i glad i didnt die? lol.
i probably am but jus not knowing it.
what am i talking abt?
im not making sense lar.

yesterday//
rushed home after school.
bathed, changed.
went out with sis. (:
went to far east plaza.
bought a halter.
reserved this PURPLE shirt.
had fun with her.
my sister's jus awesome.
SHANNON is back.
is that good or bad? lol.

TODAY//
after school, came home with jasvindar.
dad picked me up and we went to far east plaza.
bought the shirt i reserved.
then went to plaza sing.
ate burger king, then went to some bank thing.
then HOME.
then out again with sis.
parkway.
and i jus got home.
again.

im depressed.
again. *rolls eyes.
and i jus got my period.

`a thing called love by elvis presley.

hairy monkayes.

2005-09-25T06:09:00.000-07:00

HAIYO.
im even more pissed to begin with.
but then again, calmer too.

THANKS DESMOND, FOR CHEERING ME UP!
i love you. (:

ok so anyway.
dad hit me jus now.
damn, that one hurts.
doesnt this count as child abuse?
seriously.

and as usual,
our local fuckhead of the month totally doesnt care.
i shouldnt tell him anymore.
hurhur, that will jus break his little heart wont it?
made of stone, that evil hitler-related dope.

i hate talking like this.
as in, all sad and moody and crapped.
make people worried. (x
HAH. yea right.

so i shall stop.
i shall act all happy and cheery.
shouldnt be hard, since its ON-damn-LINE.

where's ivan.
i need my mutant.

`i miss you by blink182.

pissed off.

2005-09-25T03:51:00.000-07:00

ok so seriously.
im pissed off, cranky, etc.
why? no idea.

mann.
i wish there was no school tmr.
i need to sleep in, relax.
DIE? goddd.
ok like fuck it lar, my life is a disaster.
currently anyway.
i need a good long cry.
maybe not.

i feel so BAHH.
maybe i should go deeper, than skin deep.
muscle deep, maybe. bone.
maybe i shoudnt even do it at all.
leave it like that.
ok thats ridiculous.
is anyone getting what im saying?
only smart people will. (:

i find no solace in school.
no peace at home neither.
friends seem so far away.
church is once a week.
poetry is getting dull. GASP!

maybe i should end it all, again.
finish it off.
say goodbye, au revoir, sayonara?
and hello again to the never-ending pain.
that sounds hellish.
maybe becuz it IS hellish, ruth.

crying and bleeding are of no use.
they make it worse dammit, worse.
you feel sadder, more pain!
but i cant say i dont enjoy it though.

maybe i should make it seem accidental.
heheh, chop chop anyone?
im not sadistic, honest!

FUCK, i need you.

sick of you.

2005-09-25T03:21:00.000-07:00

lester;
i doubt you're reading this.
but fuck, im so sick of you i feel like crying.
or maybe not.
it hurts lar, idiot, it hurts.
i should give up. shouldn't i?
give me affirmation!

thanks clare, for wanting to scold lester. (:
thanks yulica, for dao-ing lester.
thanks jian xin, for listening to my whines.
thanks mabel, for being the substitute.
thanks andrew, for cheering me up.
thanks selena, for trying to understand.
thanks rainie, for talking things out.
thanks desmond, for being a retard.

and lastly, thanks IVAN, for making life worth it.

im suicidal now. ((:

dinner and ice cream!

2005-09-24T08:43:00.000-07:00

not much time to blog.
nothing to say also though.
so yea, whatever? lol.

abt one plus, met ivan at parkway.
walked around.
ULTRA BORING, but heck.
the company rocked. (:
saw charlene at popular.
then later at church. LOL.
service was alright today.
last day, so yea.
next week is flag day.
whoohoo. fun fun fun.
but anyway.
basia's birthday is on monday.
and paul's bday is today.
hurhur.
mabel is my darling.
she's so absolutely squishable.
i used her as my substitute for HIM.
and mann, she's great. lol.

dinner at some freak hotel.
supposed to go hard rock cafe for dessert.
but it was too crowded.
BUT HELLO,
i saw this ultra ultra hot guy.
i think its nate, lol.
but anyway.
he was fantastically gorgeous.
his dressing was wayy cool.
it wasnt exactly a tux, but its those kind.
as in like, top hat and all? yea.
he did turn around and smile.
once he saw me staring like fuck. LOL.
sadly, we didnt stay.
went to swensen's at tampines, instead.
big difference.

so then here i am.
doing quizzes on friendster.
talking to JIAN XIN and IVAN.
haha. jian xin. hahah.
funny guy.
he dressed gayish today though.
HURHUR, jian xin.
i know you're reading.
tag lar, you idiot.

clare wrote me such a nice testimonial.
LOL, like always.
i love clare. ((:

and, as usual again,
where the hell is my big fat hairy monkaye?!

`collide by howie day.

screams and such.

2005-09-23T21:22:00.000-07:00

HELLO! (:
this morning is crapped.
lol. i slept at three last night.
and woke up at seven this morning.
SEVEN! gasp.
but managed to go back to sleep.
nine, then ten plus, officially woke up.
watched the simpsons.
wished the woman happy birthday.
dad called, not going for lunch out today.

NOOOO!!
sighh. so im here.
what the hell am i saying.
rubbishing, rubbishing.

nicole told me abt the simpsons chocolates.
at taka, seven bucks.
I MUST BUY! hurhur.
im talking hysterical nonsense.

last night i made the blog.
diary, rather.
for my poems and all that crap.
yeaps. its linked.
so is rockson. hahah!

currently talking to IVAN.
aiyahh. where's my hairy monkaye?!

lester pissed me off jus now.
like, seriously.
wtf is his problem? urghh.

missing CLARE much.
i havent talked to her in ages lar.
damn.
and YULICA is official with him. ((:
isnt that so cute? yeaballs.
i love my honeys.

okok whatever.

`candleburn by dishwalla. (im addicted, damn.)

lame lar.

2005-09-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

this is a totally unecessary post. but oh wells.

I LOVE MY BIG FAT HAIRY MONKAYE. (:
desball! hurhur.

"GREATEST ACHIEVEMENT = CRAPPING WITH RUTH X)"
(how sweet hor? lol!)

desball's speech for our oscar award:
"FIRSTLY. I SHALL THANK YOU MSN FOR GIVING ME AN OPPORTUNITY TO CRAP WITH MY DEAR PARTNER, RUTH. AND I SHALL THANK MY MONKEYYS HU STARTED THE WHOLE HUMAN THING. IF NOT FOR THEM, I WUN BE HERE. AND I WUN BE LAFFING HOW HAIRY THEY ARE"

oh, so funny. so so funny.
right. seeya!

i love CLARE, YULICA.
esther's so cute.
PAIGE is awesome. ((:

i want green day please.
gasp! theresa knows andrew! lol.

`break you by marion raven.

this is retarded.

2005-09-23T04:34:00.000-07:00

HOOBASHAGA!
ok that was tribaly unecessary.

im in loooove.
yea yea.

ok anyway.
i posted yesterday.
but the whole fugging thing disappeared!
ahhh.
and i didnt bother to re-post so yar.
lame shit.

SCHOOL IS FUCKED UP.
as usual. more so, if any.
arranged the desks today.
to prepare for the upcoming exams.
hurhur, im not prepared lar.
had chem test today, sucked.
math test yesterday. pretty hard lar.

i saw a giant lizard yesterday.
it probably was some deformed mutant.
cuz it was fucking huge balls!
think it was a kimodo dragon lar.

finally read finished the devil wears prada.
yes nicole, finally.
its funny, pretty good. recommended. (:

i slepty jus now, and i had a nightmare.
i dreamt abt poison pasta.
and wtf, now i dont dare eat.
sighh.
sis is out for her dance lesson. cute huh?

last night was funny.
i talked to andrew for so long.
laughing and yelling on the phone.
we were like stupid lunatics lar. hahah.
but oh so fun.
then called ivan. *smile smile.

IVAN!
the stupid fella aint online.
he's working. working! urghh.
and he wont be back till like, eleven.
and i'll be lonely. sighh sighh.
but im talking to andrew now lar.
so it aint so bad, dear readers. YUCK.

jian xin is so busy preparing for his o's.
or whatever the hell he's doing.
that, god forbid, he stopped stalking me!
so its up to me now. to stalk him.
lame shit lar.
tmr got church though, im happy.
and the stupid woman's birthday.
im jus looking forward to the dessert. (:

i wrote a poem abt cutting.
and im gonna share it with the world!
lol. those who read my blog anyway.
not bragging lar, i jus wanna like, post it here.
its pretty much dedicated to those who erm, cut.
(like eileen, donna, sighh. me?)
im not like showing off or anyth.
cuz i honestly dont think that my poems are good.
but as any other "writer", i am pretty proud of my work.
share the shit, balls! here you go:

The Masterpiece.
a perfect piece of paper, pure and untouched.
and a beautiful pen that writes with no fears.
pen to paper, pen to parer, the ink flows.
to reveal an art piece, of colours and tears.
i draw a single dark line, so straight and so deep.
the ink spills over the page and splashes,
but my picture is incomplete.
jus one more touch, one more line, till the paper rips.
and my drawing will satisfy my thirst.
with my skillful hands and my loyal pen,
the lines with represent my wretched hurt.
and the colours will show the weakness of a man.

-end-
(in case you didnt know, pen is knife, paper is SKIN.)

NICOLE SAYS IM SADISTIC.
jus cuz i want her dog to die.
its not sadistic right? come on.
her dog tried to EAT me for god's sake.
be reasonable.

currently loving CLARE and YULICA.
currently missing IVAN.
currently talking to ANDREW. (shucks, he jus left.)
currently waiting for DESMOND.
currently messaging JUSTIN.

love green day. HAH!
jesslyn said they were coming to singapore.
yea right.

`listen to your heart by dht.

backkkk.

2005-09-20T05:35:00.000-07:00

ok post again.
this time its for nuts lar.

seven things that scare me:
that block checker thing.
squids.
techno music. (ohmygodd...)
little kids.
screams from little kids.
whiny kids.
CLOWNS.

seven people that i like the most:
clare!!
yulica. (:
andrew.
mabel.
desmond.
rainie.
jian xin. (x

seven important things in my room:
my cds.
my phone.
magazines.
books. (gossip girl, heh.)
green day posters.
my beanies.
my simpsons dvds.

seven random facts about me:
im retarded.
i love clare and yulica alot. ALOT.
i love green day.
i get sick easily.
i have weird hair.
i have 7 ear piercings?
i love reading.

seven things i plan to do before i die:
meet green day.
get married to clare.
get 3 siberian huskies.
get poems published.
hook up with old friends?
kill junior. (nicole's dog)
brainwash people. HEH.

seven things i can do:
memorize certain songs.
make clare smile. (x
make yulica happy. (x
stalk jian xin.
talk nonsense.
be annoying.
pose for cameras right.

seven things i can't do:
talk to animals.
understand humans.
cut my own hair.
kill myself.
love my mom.
pass chinese.
understand whiny kids.

seven things i say the most:
wtf?
funkaye.
yeaballs.
i love my clareball.
i love yulica!
shuttup lar.
go away.

seven celeb crushes/admiration:
eric szmanda.
adam brody.
johnny depp.
william petersen. (old, blading, but cute.)
paul guifoyle.
joaquin pheonix.
dan castelleneta. (think thats how you spell it.)

YAY.
thats done. so byebye.

nothing to say.

2005-09-20T05:06:00.000-07:00

I GOT NOTHING MUCH TO SAY!
lol.

clare:
i love you! we'll get married and live happily ever after kay.
i miss you babe. you're mine. FAV! perfection. cant wait to see you again.

yulica:
i miss you!! ahhhh. we must we must we must go out. iloveyou!
and call me lar. idiot. (x you're my everythingggg..

actually thats abt all.
they're my two honeys lar, must give them special treatment.
they rock my world. (:

DESMOND! i know you're reading.
hah. loves my husband. (x

JIAN XIN! i know you're reading too.
keep stalking me lar, why stop?
hahah. seeya saturday!

this post is lame shit.

hectic week.

2005-09-17T20:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO!
its been long since i posted.
this week has been.. fun. heh.

i shall skip monday-thursday.

FRIDAY//
school was shit, as usual.
but after school was good. (:
met lester for "dinner" at like 5.
then met CLARE and YULICA!
heehee.
clare is absolutely goegeous.
and yulica's so hot.
clare couldnt come for the concert thingy though.
but she walked with me and yul to school.
and she called her mom there.
hah.
saw yvonne and the rest of the ncc cadets.
they were surprised i was there.
but yea.
watched loserfuck 2 perform.
as a bloody gay demon. wtf?
it was damn lame lar.
her mom is like so idiotic.
but anyway.
hung around school for a while.
then we went to amber park.
to meet guangming and alex. (:
some guy timothy came too.
hung around the pool.
alex is reall irrelevant. lol.
unlike her stupid sister.
anyway.
they asked us to go up for some partaye thing.
but, like the good girl i am.
i didnt. HEE.
yulica felt bad, my poor honey.
so reached home around ten plus.
yay.

YESTERDAY//
hahah.
fun, fun, fun.
jian xin is stalking me.
GASP.
haha. he's funny lar.
retardedly funny.
had church.
lester and i went for the service too.
saw CHAO YANG GOR! heehee.
and ping ping.
then we all had dinner.
at some coffee shop thingy.
yum though. (:
went to ecp to play lanterns.
hahah.
adrina was scared and all. so cute!
and ROBERT was like a bloody clown.
he's funny.
so yea, had fun, blah blah.
then jian xin, lester, adrina, charlene and i went to parkway.
sent charlene and lester off.
then jian xin, adrina and i went to parkway.
LOL, those 2 sentences dont make sense.
but anyway.
jian xin bought a pressie for his friend.
then we all went home.
YEAPS.

why does friendster look so fucked.
i mean, yuck.
oh wait. its kinda cool.

I LOVE MY CLAREBALL so much it hurts. (:
I LOVE MY YULICA, that gorgeous thing.

keep stalking jian xin, i dont mind.
HAH.

whats his name.

2005-09-11T01:30:00.000-07:00

hungry hungry hungry.
nate remembered the BOX.
he's in singapore, apparently.
addicted to black canyon's coffee.
good for him.

today was pretty boring.
woke up really late.
i mean, yea.
last night slept really late too.
talked to clare. (:
laughed over rockson.
bitched about debra.
all the sadism..
anyway.
went to cafe cartel for lunch.
then parkway.
bought my top up. (finally)
and stationary.
lame shit la.

loserfuck 1, 2 and 3.
ALL RELATED TO BLOODY HITLER.
loserfuck one picks her nose.
loserfuck two runs like a ostrich.
loserfuck three wriggles her ass.
down with loserfucks!!
DOWN!

yulica called jus now. (:
had a nice chat with her.
LOL. this sounds crap.
but really.
it was great talking to her.
friday we're all going out.
HORNY FOUR-O! fun fun fun.
talked abt the issue.
she's okaie now. (:

looking for another stupid blogskin.
getting sick of this one.
HEH.

school starts tmr.
not prepared.
is there any homework?

I LOVE CLARE, YULICA, ANNABELLE.
and andrew. (:

`whatsername by green day.

FLOWERS!

2005-09-10T06:46:00.000-07:00

HOLIDAYS ARE OVER!
well, few more days.
godd.
let the good times roll.

friday//
jia jun's barbeque. (:
say awesome, cuz it was.
morning sucked though.
shall not elaborate..
ANYWAY.
met lester and kerin at bedok.
then took a train to pasir ris.
met basia, jia jun, jian xin, teresa and lydia!
went to eat.
i didnt though.
felt depressed (hah) so walked around alone.
then we all went food shopping!
all of us broke into little groups.
me and lester were FUN.
hah.
that doesnt make sense but heh.
then WALKED all the way back to jia jun's house.
in the bleedin hot sun.
jian xin had to carry two watermelons. (:
rested a while.
then went to bedok, giant.
FUN! it was really fun.
shan't elaborate, to much details.
bought milo for lester though. hee.
went back to his house.
crapped all the way.
lester and i walked around the estate.
FLOWERS! (:
hahah. it was so cute.
then the bbq!
so many people came, my goshh.
the usual us:
lester, kerin, charlene, basia, jian xin.
anddd..
jia jun gor, chao yang gor, ben gor, leonard.
teresa, lydia, ada, ping ping, cheryl.
diana, rachel, amanda, deneh.
marcus, dillan, matthew, zhi yang.
YAY.
had so much fun la.
played whacko.
everyone was thankful for ben and me.
for having one syllable names.
oh well.
always knew my name could come in handy sometime.
had worship, then cell.
then went home.
around eleven.
chao yang gor sent us to the station.
squished in the car! hee.
trained with lester, kerin, jian xin, teresa.
lydia, marcus, matthew, dillian and zhi yang.
LAME LA.
the attack of the cameras.
daddy picked me up home.
surprise! SURPRISE dammit!!
there was a bloody huge green day poster.
on my wall, next to my bed.
to those who came over, its bigger than the d12 one.
SCREAMS!
bask in the hottness of billie joe, please.
oh so yummy.
thanks daddy. (:

so anyway.
am currently hating debra.
hating, hating, hating debra,
shan't elaborate neither.
BUT SHE'S LOSERFUCK THREE.
she called my babe *that!
hahah. i mean. HURHUR.
that stupid woman shall pay.
down with debra!!
and the other loserfucks.

I LOVE CLARE.
to death please.
I LOVE YULICA.
goddd, like hell.
I LOVE ANNABELLE.
oh so yummy.

thanks for being there for me!
CLARE, YULICA, ANNABELLE, ANDREW!
loves.

`homecoming by green day.

holidays over?

2005-09-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

the holidays are coming to an end.
but the days have been good. (:
though they are people i didnt go out with.
when im supposed to.
PLANS AND ALL, rahh.

yesterday//
long day.
long long day.
met sarah and geo in the morning.
then went to have "lunch", mos burger.
went to bugis.
walked around a bit.
LAME, whatever.
then i left them! hah. right.
anyway.
met po linn! (:
MY LONG LOST BESTIE.
she's a nerd now.
hahaha.
but yea, we had fun!
took neos.
and watched red eye.
its a pretty good movie i guess.
went to kembagan to meet lester.
then back to plaza sing.
to have dinner with mabel. (:
waited twenty minutes for her.
GOODNESS.
ate at kfc, to satisfy her craving.
then went to take neos.
hah, thats two sets in a day.
then went to the arcade.
watch the pros play. heh.
went to yamaha.
i kept squealing when i saw funkaye stuff.
signed up for the card.
lol lame.
watched this guy play the piano.
then the girl singing along.
how erm, nice.
then left, went to meet dean.
then i went home.
called drew, he's stressed.
the poor thing.

today//
oh good, and bad day.
morning met geo.
then my step bro.
watched the perfect catch.
alright movie. hah.
then went to meet BELLE AND YULICA.
ohmygodd i love them.
we were crazy.
seriously hopping mad crazy.
but it was SO MUCH FUN.
went to heeran.
looking for a bikini for yulica.
bought a purple cheap one. (:
took neos!
two sets in fact.
then they came over to my house.
i shall not say what happened.
obviously its the bad.
and now im suicidal. RAHH.

I LOVE YULICA AND BELLE.
thanks so much for everyth sweeties.

`dearly beloved by green day.

summer dreams?

2005-09-06T04:49:00.000-07:00

i feel like cursing and swearing.
over and over and over..
rahh. but i wont. (:

today was fugging boring.
stayed home the whole day.
yes, scary isnt it.
anyway.
woke up bleedin early.
but kept going back to sleep.
so finally officially woke up at one.
HAH.
watched teevee for a while.
boring.
had lunch with sis.
boring.
read a novel.
boring.
then watched the forgotten. (:
pretty good.
called po linn.
planned for tmr.
bugis, 1.30, red eye. YUM.
dinner with mabel.

I MISS CLARE.
like so bleedin much.
she's on some stupid camp.
playing the tuba. (x
i miss her i miss her i miss her.

RAINIE;
thanks alot alot kay.
for helping with the you know what.
haha.
i really appreciate it. (:
loves!

oh and by the way.
visit this:
http://rockson.blogspot.com
ITS BLEEDIN' FUNNY.
honest.

`homecoming by green day.

holidays.

2005-09-05T07:00:00.000-07:00

its the official start to the holidays.
one pathetic week, but hell.
good enough.

saturday//
church!
mabel didnt come.
she was SICK. poor darling.
anyway.
many people came though.
the stupid dao kias.
but its fun.
had the arts performance at night.
esplanade.
reminiscing by the moon, i think.
it was.. artistic.
im a fan of art and all.
like drama, dance, MUSIC.
but this was.
weird, no offense.
*mumbles in gibberish.
went back to school after.
carissa's dad dropped me off.
thats abt it..

yesterday//
lunch with family.
supposed to go hyatt and eat.
but god knows what happened.
and we ended up at scotts.
then had ice cream. (:
went to parkway to meet mabel.
but she cancelled.
so met HIM.
then went home.
had tuition.
yawn, whatever.

TODAY!
met lester at bedok.
went to toa payoh to study. (:
i got bored after a while.
HAH.
so went orchard.
walked around.
didnt have time to watch a movie, DAMN.
so checked out cds.
then went home.
boring, i know.
oh oh oh.
i saw CLARE AND YULICA! (:
hot stuff mann.

i love my clareball.
she's so gorgeous, it kills.

i love yulica.
i love annabelle.
i love rainie!

time to go bitch on alex on HER blog.

`jesus of suburbia by green day.

stupid faggot.

2005-09-02T05:29:00.000-07:00

for bleedin's sake.
the nerve of some people.
that dweeb from clare's tagboard, for example.
is a DWEEB!
may (s)he choke on a bloody death.

rewinddd;

thursday//
went to meet jolyn in the morning.
she was bleedin late.
sickening.
but anyway.
went to serangoon to meet the rest.
it was fun, i guess.
supposed to TAN, but the weather sucked.
it rained, bloody hell, it rainied.
so we ended up swimming.
jolyn kept being annoying to the guys.
lame shit, stupid flirt.
rahh.
cabbed to parkway.
then took a bus home.
NIGHT!
ooh yum.
i called sarah, asked her how she is and all.
im so nice mann. hah.
but yea.
she intro`ed me to geovenn.
he's funkaye.
but not as funkaye as my CLARE!
i love her so bleedin' much.
yes yes.
my babe clare rocks balls.
and YULICA. and ANNABELLE.
i love them all.

today//
school.
got back my report book.
did pretty ok i guess.
pissed off in the morning mann!
so bleedin' mad.
at that BITCH.
good heavens.
she made feng late, and got detention.
and she didnt even apologize.
what the fuck is that?
urghh.
melody was damn pissed off with her too.
p.e played softball, minus the batting.
hahah.
after school waited for feng.
then went home.
went to suntec with sis.
then home again.
and here i am.
bored outta my fugging mind.

i love CLARE.
i love yulica.
i love geovenn.
i love andrew.
i love belle.

im annoying now.

`give me novacaine by green day.

teacher's day celebration.

2005-08-31T05:33:00.000-07:00

HEYY BALLS.
long time since i posted.
seems like it anyway.
i miss my shit-ugly blog.
im listening to christmas songs now. (:

monday//
do not remember.

tuesday//
cannot remember neither..
no assembly? heh.

okok skip it.

TODAY!
had mass in the morning.
then stupid games.
was in the bean bag thingy race. (:
mrs jalleh did it with us.
mr lee (desmond) raced in the SPRINTS!
and mr meyer in the medicine ball.
heheh.
then we went back to change and all.
and back down to celebrate.
bleedin class next to us in the canteen.
yelling and yelling and yelling.
bleedin action bitch there. annoying.
bought pens for 2 lovely teachers.
only two! yay.
mr meyer wrote the class a poem and all.
its really.. interesting. its great.
and he's gonna get his book published soon.
good for him. heh.
after school went out.
with MAZIN and STEFFI!
crapped like hell on the bus.
we started singing too. HAH!
it was fun mann.
went to plaza sing, to use up the voucher.
yes, fifty dollar voucher!
hee hee.
godd it was pretty horrible.
we couldnt really decide on what.
but anyway, in the end we spent it on giorrdano.
IM SO NICE.
i bought stuff for mazin.
then we went home, happy. lol.

i love clare.
i love her to death.

i love pumpkin!
really i do i do yes i dooo! hee.

`i want to tell you by the beatles.

this sucks.

2005-08-28T05:20:00.000-07:00

im NOT gonna let it affect me.
it shouldn't. right?
its not supposed to be my problem.
okok technically it is, but.
rahh.
*chants a mantra.

solution: get wasted.
yea right.
BE SMART WOMAN.
sorraye for the harshness. (x
but yeaps.

this is a story about a girl.
lets call her RUTA.
and another girl.
lets call her RAYNA.
and a guy..
lets call him SMELLEY.
and another guy.
lets call him LEMONA.
other characters include CLANCLAN, YUPPA, ANTOODEE.
names have been changed for their privacy.

ruta jus realized how FREE she is!
in the sense that she's not bounded.
by emotions. HEH!
she's supposed to be all hurt and sad.
about smelley.
but she's not. *smug look.
SHE'S HAPPY, in bleeding fact.

ruta is supposed to be angry with rayna.
but she's not.
she doesnt know why neither.
guess she doesnt care anymore.
for the 4 months she was hurt and blahh.
but then.
JUNE CAME!
that wonderful month.
and she totally forgot about it.
BUT.
good things must always come to an end.
and rayna brought it up again.
goodness.

ruta's happy little love bubble burst.
she became irritable (more so, anyway)
she became temperamental (MORE SO!)
she messed up with lemona!
oh the horror the horror.
she cried BAD.
she ran to clanclan, antoodee and yuppa.
in the period of truma, smelley appeared.
he pretended to care.
he pretended to love.
STUPID RUTA!
she thought he was for real.

and a part of her died.

tanned!

2005-08-28T02:42:00.000-07:00

IM TANNED!
okok not really.
but im darker than last time.
heheheh.

TODAY//
nothing much really.
woke up ten plus.
went down to 7-11 to top up my ez link.
then parkway to top up my hi card.
then went to tamp to meet yu feng. (:
bought tickets for the movie.
went walking around.
saw mags with giant billie joe posters.
started squealing and all.
reserved them for tmr. (:
watched charlie and the chocolate factory.
JOHNNY DEPP; hot hot hot.
alright show i guess.
if you like wackos dancing everywhere.

went parkway before i headed home.
so erm yea.
and here i am then.

i love clare!

she's funkaye.

that bleedin son of a dyke will die.
perish i tells ya!!

testimonials for my annabelle. (:
i love her so.

oh mann i need money.
now, please.

`everlasting love by jamie cullum.

outing with pettigrews!!

2005-08-27T04:51:00.000-07:00

FUNKAYE DAY BALLS.
but i shall talk abt yesterday first.
heheh.

yesterday//
school school school.
b-o-r-i-n-g.
then after school. (:
home, bathed, ate, blahh.
sis was home. yeaps.
so left the house again around 5.
went to suntec.
godd i was bleedin early.
but anyway.
met up with mom first.
then went back to my waiting post.
hurhur.
saw pastor lawrence.
dont like him.
so met up with joy, joshua and jonathan.
they look so cute. (:
went for dinner.
then up to the convention hall.
met up with mabel.
then went in.
the show is pretty good
MUCH MUCH better than last year's.
yeaps.
then went to macs to eat.
then went back up to get the luggage.
rahh.
dad came to pick us up.
we all squished into the car.
funnaye. lol.
sent joshua and jonathan back first.
then joy came over.
hung out for a while, then slept.
it was bleedin late already anyway.
HEH. that was yesterday then.

today//
woke up at abt 10.
left the house with sis and joy.
went to wesley for the food fair!
met josh and jonathan.
rahh.
we tried to get a cab for 5 people.
but the stupid law abiding freaks.
so walked to dhoby ghaut.
took a train to pasir ris.
went to white sands to eat macs.
but realized it was too crowded.
so we decided to eat at escape.
ate hot dogs. (:
THEN!
the fun began.
havent been to escape in years.
rode lotsa rides!
funkaye balls.
then left for home abt five.
they took a cab.
sis and i rode buses all the way.
sighh. deadness.
sis sent me home, then she went off.
and so here i am. rahh.

TOMORROW!
going out with yu feng.
gonna watch charlie and the chocolate factory.
she got free tickets. (:
then gonna meet selena after that.
heheh.

supposed to go out with dawn today.
oh wells.

loserfuck is seriously pathetic.

`for the longest time by billy joel.

rahh.

2005-08-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

good news, bad news, funkaye news.
rahh.
the week is almost over.
and im glad.
im talking rubbish again la.

monday//
was spastic. i dont remember anyth.
as usual.
i think monday sucked.
lol.
OHH.
joy, joshua and jonathan arrived.
hmm. yea.

tuesday//
dont remember. lalala.

wednesday//
oh suckaye. rahh.
had a fight with carissa.
but its pretty over now..

TODAY//
hmm. morning sucked.
but the rest of the day was okaie.
i passed my chinese. (:
first time in bloody seven years.
shocking balls.
but anyway anyway.
lit was FUN.
kinda gross but yea.
carissa kept molesting me.
rahh.
miss tan looked seriously retarded.
hahah. really.
lunch in school with carissa, feng and vonne.
went to tamp.
with mazin, yvonne, eunice, stephanie, samantha, felicia.
BIG GROUP. nahh not really.
it was fun!
had lunch at long john silvers.
walked around.
made plans with mazin and eunice to go tan.
haha. in the sept holidays.
yeaps.
took bus home with vonne.
she's great. (:

ALEX IS EVIL!
inhuman bloody bastard.
he did the most revolting any human could ever do.
godd.
i feel like ripping him apart.
guys are such three eyed mutant frogs.
grr.

i hate him!
hate hate hate hate him.
*mutters in gibberish.
ive been doing that alot lately.

supposed to meet andrew jus now.
but he was too tired.
heh. so yeaps.
its his loss;
i get to keep the moola. (x

finished reading Les Miserables.
wonderful book. really!
lol.
eating cookies now.
getting bloody fat AGAIN.
sighh.
talking to this girl saying she's billie joe's daughter.
RIGHT.

going for dinner and spook show tmr.
with joy, joshua and jonathan.
haha.
joy's gonna stay over and all.
how sweet.
its gonna be fun. (:

I LOVE CLARE.
my funkayest babe. <3
always have, always will, forever more.
lol. cheesy hallmark card.

I LOVE YULICA.
my hot hot best wifey.
always have, always will, blahh blah. lol.

I LOVE RAINIE.
my best girl.
that stupid other girl better not say her.

`two princes by spin doctors.

lameness.

2005-08-21T02:06:00.000-07:00

stupid stupid dog.
barked so much this morning.
i felt like throwing her out the window.
*mutters in gibberish.
she bloody woke me up.
rahh.

anyway.
woke up ten plus.
bathed, changed.
then dad told me i had to deliver someth for mom.
RAHH.
took bus with sis to parkway.
saw rebecca and dunno who on the bus.
they were so.. yuck.
anyway.
gave goddaddy his thingy.
and he promised me chocolate next week. (x

met mabel at 7-11.
heheh.
went to pasta mania for lunch.
YUM.
then talked and talked.
its fun.
i love mabel.
then went to macs.
met mom.
bought stuff for sis.
im such a nice sister. heh.

went to old airport road for lunch.
well, my second lunch.
im hideously fat now. hurhur.
then went to parkway.
walked around with mom and dad..
then they left me.
ALL ALONE.
rahh.
he messaged me. saying he's in parkway.
and asked to meet.
GOSHH.
i almost fainted but hmm.
met him.
sighh.

ANYHOO.
waited for half an hour plus for lester.
that is, if you exclude meeting him.
walked around.
i was pretty tired so.
yea.
was retarded la. lol.

came home, washed up.
online now.
talked to jian xin about music.
hahah.
played solitaire.
talked to rainie.
hope she's okaie.

OHOHOHOH.
gossipgirl.net totally changed its format.
awesome, awesome, awesome.
its seriously funkaye. lol.
go see, go see!

im starting to feel sorry for sarah.

I LOVE CLARE.
and yulica.
clare rocks.
and yulica.
lol.
yulica rocks too. (x

`the reason by hoobastank.

yay.

2005-08-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

i love saturdays.
heheh.
woke up late as usual.
showered, then dad came home.
LUNCH.
at different tastes;
meaning. yuck.

dad dropped me off at parkway.
mom went to ntuc.
yea as if she'll survive a minute there.
met lester.
bought my top up.
then whoohoo, went to church.
this is really the first time that im excited to go.

saw MABEL.
ooh love love mabel.
took photos.
jia jun is funny.
jian xin is funnier.
harvey is the funniest.

yea ok anyway.
after that went to eat at burger king.
with lester, obviously.
then walked around isetan.
then mph again.
boredom makes you do boring things.
then his mom came so i left.
cheryl lake (how to spell it?) stopped me.
asked for friggin TEN CENTS.
uhuh.
im a good samaritan then. yuck.

so then. home.
tuiton.
peter and vivien came for dinner.
and shirleen.
yea yea whatever.
lol.
andrew is in depression.
stupid guy. lol.

CLARE ROCKS.
i love clare.
hahah. asswipes inc mann.
universal, international.
heh.

i need to update my blog profile.
did friendster's last night.
lame shit.

love RAINIE.
heheh.
i got my public thank you, at last.

`collide by howie day.

lazy to blog.

2005-08-19T04:15:00.000-07:00

im kinda lazy to blog, really.
but then again.
rahh.

but anyhoo,
school has been HAVOC.
well, kinda.
eww.
HYPOCRITES EVERYWHERE.
all around me.
godd.
you lie, you cheat, you scam, etc.
and yet you had the BALLS.
to even think of telling on her.
geez mann.
fuck you la.
thought we were friends and all.
godd. im so bloody stupid.
most of the time.

cant believe it la.
the week goes by so fast.
and so many things have been happening faster.
it sucks.
*mutters in gibberish.

anyway.
last night was daddy's competition.
hard rock cafe is yummy.
and the decor is absolutely delicious.
dad didnt win though.
oh wells.
got some pretty funkaye prize though.
IVAN WORKS AT HARD ROCK!
haha. i was so surprised.
he was yelling my name 5 times i think.
and i was like wtf?!
and there he was.
all 6 feet of him. tanned as EVER.
uhhuh.
took photos with brian ritchmond.
lame shit.
FOOD. IS. YUMMY.
i could eat the whole diner balls.

belle and i are dissing bitch #1.
heheh.
and i jus realized someth HORRIBLE.
okok not horrible.
jus shocking.
DEBRA; is kinda out balls.

i miss rainie.

though we dont talk as much anymore.

sighh sighh sighh.

CLARE!

we're supposed to bloody go out.

with yulica.

RAHH.

im sorraye i couldnt.

next week okok.

you still rock tonnes baby.

`break you by marion raven.

so fucked up.

2005-08-17T04:12:00.000-07:00

alrighty.
ive seriously missed my comp. heh.
school's been okaie.
i guess.

monday//
horrid horrid day. lol.
nothing much actually.
had social studies and chinese test.
FAILED CHINESE.

tuesday//
assembly sucked.
thats all i remembered abt tues.
slept in library. rahh.

wednesday//
which is today.
mad mad pissing off sessions with myself.
passed english.
passed math.
passed science.
failed chinese. FUG IT.

adding billie joe in friendster.
amazing how many accounts there are.
HAH.
totally changed my profile.

life currently sucks at the moment.
*mutters in gibberish.
hi-card no money.
FUGGING HELL.

supposed to go out with clare tmr.
or mazin.
but now im not even sure.
i jus feel dead.
rahh.

oh oh.
totally pissed her off on tues.
FUN BALLS.
through messages but still.
heh.

thanks drew. <3
you made my day balls.

why hasnt RAINIE called?
hello. ring phone, ring!
a curse on you alexandra graham bell.

obessions obsessions;
green day and dishwalla.
love it please.

LOVE LOVE CLARE.
clare rocks balls.

where's my chadMEISTER?
freago.
deannn. my friends are in love with DEAN.
*rolls eyes.

lester's different.

`intuition by jewel.

anniversary.

2005-08-14T02:36:00.000-07:00

i love clare.
and ive been saying that since yesterday.
yeaballs.

went to MARCHE today for lunchies.
with family.
darling sister came. heheh.
walked around heeren.
then walked to gramaphone.
wanted to buy the cd but..
didnt.
WHY.
im so dumb.
i should have.
it was SO fugging cheap.
rahh.
stupid ruth.

daddy won a MAGIC CALCULATOR.
wow.
whats so magical about it anyway?
rip off.
sis and i got balloons.
and we're now scaring baby with it.
baby is my dog, btw.

jus came back from parkway.
went alone, but met lester.
saw nanda at macs.
yum.
didnt buy anyth.
sighh.

messaged clare the whole day.
about loserfuck.
its been fun.
and carissa.
HAH; that freak. lol.

need a new blogskin.
like now.
seriously.
dishwalla is good.
really.

`ironic by alanis morissette.

bong hits.

2005-08-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

my stars, if you keep taking those hits, the bong will knock you off your head.

GOSHH.
now wasnt that lame.

tuition went well.
heheh.
mom's home.
heheh.
rejoice? nahh.

and im still pissed with you!
yes you, you freak.
the one who is probably reading this.
gave you advice and yet you said it was yours.
i dont need the damn credit but HELLO.
you dont have to gloat.
stupid bitch.
im seriously hating you now.
seriously. lol.
*mutters in gibberish.
go buy a life.
and i thought this time, it would last.
guess not.

<3 chad.
thanks for everyth balls.

thanks sze yen!
you're so sweet as usual.
thanks justin!
couldnt have done it without you.

lester sounds so freakishly weird.

angelina jolie?
ok now thats funny.

`just like you by three days grace.

awesome day.

2005-08-13T03:25:00.000-07:00

AWESOME DAY. AWESOME.
note: awesome.
ok breathe.
im such a troublesome freak.
hee hee. okok letssee.

carissa came to xtreme today.
SO MANY PEOPLE!
wow. it was seriously so good.
the newies// hui min. marcus. my goshh i forgot the rest already.
the oldies// basia. jian xin. JIA JUN! charlene. catherine. nigel. ben. HARVEY! debbie.
pastior vic rocks. (:

mom's coming back today.
im not sure whether i should be happy or sad.
lol. thats pretty mean.
waiting for my bloody tutor now.
HAH.
ok la. she aint that bad.

im too lazy to go out tmr.
no matter with who.
chad's coming over though.
SO I DONT HAVE TO GO OUT.
rahh. thats so lame.

boredom.
LOVE CLARE.
kenneth got scolded by dad last night.
goshh. first time balls.

will update more later.
heh.

`candleburn by dishwalla.

yay.

2005-08-12T04:51:00.000-07:00

problem-o-matic;
is open for business.
RIGHT.
i love my sister so much. <3

anyhoooo.
two days of school only.
wasnt SO bad.
fun, in fact.
heheh. be surprised. be very surprised!
i passed my math test.
YAY.

im suddenly popular.
why? lol.
chad asked me out on sunday.
justin asked me out on sunday.
prash asked me out on sunday.
rainie asked me out on sunday.
dean asked me out on sunday.
mel asked me out on sunday.
drew asked me out on snday.
MORE MORE I TELLS YA! lol.

tmr carissa is coming along to church.
gonna meet basia.
hahah.
this is gonna be fun.
kind of went out with her today.

thanks drew, for the moola moola.
installments balls.
is the only way to go..

yulica is my babe and i love her so.
I AINT DRUNK chad.
freak. lol.

`they by jem.

yeaballs!!

2005-08-10T04:18:00.000-07:00

FUNKAYE day! tiring but, whoo. great.
i got my bear! (say this twice)
i got my friggin bear mann!!
thanks baby. (:
HEARTFORD, oh you sexaye thing.

okaie so anyway.
woke up at 10.30 by genny and rainie.
GOSHH.
i coulda slept till twelve.
they wanted me to meet them at junction 8.
sorraye balls; couldnt rush.
i owe genny lunch at marche; yikes.

im too lazy to blog about today.
BUT IT WAS SO FUN.
so so awesome.
saw chad!! and justin.

OHH. saw nicole on the bus today.
goshh, she was annoyed.
hahah.

MET ANDREW!!
zaha.
yeaballs.
carissa, oh you gorgeous thang. (x

`a mother's pray by celine dion.

the stench of deceit.

2005-08-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

cover up for him, hurry.
then maybe i can change my mind.

i shall not use the format of CHUNKY paragraphs to say abt the stories of my life. i shall be considerate to the freaks who read my blog. negh.

yesterday//
the fun stuff: with wendy, sabrina, mazin and yu feng. MOLESTED SABBY with wendy.
the bad stuff: met shannon. saw kevin. wasted moola on cab. *mutters to self.
the fucked stuff: lester. lester. lester. lester. lester. lester. lester. her.
the good stuff: called andrew. talked to nicholas, prash, sze yen, annabelle. <3
the happy stuff: dad entering elvis singing comp! yay.

prash rocks la.
thanks balls.

THE STICKMAN ROCKS. www.toothpastefordinner.com
THANK YOU.

hurry.
someone make my pain go away.

OHH.
almost forgot.
happy birthday singapore.
you're old.

good news!!

2005-08-09T04:03:00.000-07:00

guess what.
guess, come on. jus guess.

JOY AND JOSHUA ARE COMING BACK!!
oh screams.
hee hee.
this is so exciting.
its like watching the chicken roast in the oven.
BUT,
with sound effects!!

ohhhhh.
excitement.

`break you by marion raven.

wordplay.

2005-08-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

i think i can do it.
without lying, that is.

love me do, love me do, love me do.

but he has to know.
sooner or later.
i mean seriously la. hee.

pain, pain go away.
come again another day.
aiyahh. go away forever can.

radio blog?
FUNKAYE BALLS.
what the hell is it actually.
then again.
ITS FUNKAYE MANN.

`wordplay by jason mraz.

cant stop crying.

2005-08-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?!
SCREAMS.

i cant breathe.
i cant i cant i cant.
oh goshh.

you freak.

giving up.

2005-08-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

I GIVE UP.

FUCK YOU ALL LA. wah lao. help so much then get this in return. FUCK IT.
dont ask for my help anymore you BITCH.

I HATE YOU!!!!! SHANNON SUCKS.

`holiday by green day.

and baza!!

2005-08-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

thats pretty much it though.

really.
went for lunch at the club. some freak cantonese restaurants where the waiters and waitresses stand around and STARE. goshh. had fun crapping around with the family. <3 my sister. yes yes. then sent mom off to malaysia. some hotel, where the bus thingys are. saw this guy, penjabi (whoohoo, sorry if i spelt that wrongly balls.) yeps. then my sister pinched my arm SO BLOODY PAINFULLY and i didnt get the fugging joke and she was like no fun. WHAT?! the joke was that i had to say the dude's turban colour. good lord. it was bright orange btw. lol. FUNKAYE balls. zaha. then came home. and here i am. OHH. this morning, spoke to KEVIN. kevin, kevin, kevin. goshhh. i didnt lose my temper, surprisingly. *rolls eyes. but anyway, rahh. got a testimonial from neekee. NICE. thanks mann. lol. and im STILL looking for a nice nice blogskin. godd, they suck. sorraye but yea. lol. mondaye is CANCELLED with my bestgirl rainie. SIGHH. sad. stupid school, stupid tests, stupid teacher, stupid chinese.

HANG IN THERE PRASH.

joyin dear.
tacypoc gnikaerf. HAH. in your face ruijun!!

`as long as i am breathing by the rembrants.

and the cows go..

2005-08-06T20:12:00.000-07:00

alright alright.

you cows suck. godddddd.
*mutters in chinese, but sounds like gibberish.

what, no life?
come on, MOO for me.

screams.

2005-08-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

i cant take it anymore.

SERIOUSLY. oh goshh. ive been trying to forget it for months, but i cant. i jus cant!! besides the fact that people keep bringing it up anyway. sighh. its so hard to forget someone after all the bloody memories. THAT SUCKS. goshh. i wanna forget, i needa forget, i have to forget! its not good. nada. WHY WHY WHY. its like a friggin worm, wringing in and out of my head.. find another worm hole dammit!! gahh. get out of my head pleaseeee. good lord. this hurts. i gotta be strong! lol. yea right. at least its not affecting me much.. issit? rahh. i dont even know. pain pain go away, come again another day. though i'd rather you go away forever.

`jian dan ai by jay chou. (yes, a chinese song!! wow.)

funkaye.

2005-08-06T05:27:00.000-07:00

rahh rahh.

normal day. well pretty normal. woke up at nine, then ten, then eleven. officially. watched the simpsons reruns and waited for dad to come home. but he didnt till one plus, so rahh. had to eat at home. nice though, SALMON! haha. changed, then went to parkway to meet lester. dad was sleeping so he couldnt drive me there.. negh. saw maryam at my house bus stop. lol. lester was wearing a cap today cuz he said he didnt have time to make his hair and all. durr, if you go jamming with bloody martin in the fugging morning and rush to meet your stupid girlfriend, you shouldnt have time to throw liquid on your friggin hair to make it stand right? gahh. since it was so bloody hot, we kinda like ran to service. we were early. really early. ben and team were still practising. funkaye balls. they play good. lester was tired since yea, the morning was TIRING for him so whatever. talked to charlene and catherine. at least they respond. anyhooo, besia and debbie were there. and xiao jun (really!) not ruiwen. some paster named william came to talk, and GOSHH he was fierce. scolded the two guys sitting at the back acting so dao and all. yeaballs. then he sent me, lester, cathering, jun xiang (i think thats his name. zits were having a festival on his face mann! no offense.), jia jun, charlene, besia out. to 'connect' and all. saw uncle lester and pastor lawrence. think thats his name too hahah. anyway, we sat at the hawker centre (they renovated, looked awesome.) and chatted. jia jun is damn funny mann. leonard and guo someth came also. yea. so chatted, whatever, blahh. then they went for the service at 5, then lester and i went to go eat. went to macs to see whether yvonne was working, but only saw samson. but i asked the other guy anyway, he said she probably wasnt working so yea. bought twister fries!! oh goshh. so happy that its back, haha. the little things that make me happy. then went to the taxi stand to wait for lester's parent to pick him up. he thought he saw them already, so he left. and so did i. then i walked away and all, went to the bus stop, then i realized i had 3 messages. lester, saying false alarm, parents werent there yet. URGHH. wasted lor. but i was on the way home already, stupid phone! so whatever la.. then home. met mom at the staircase. lol. kenneth was over. right. called rainie, she sounds better but hmm. hope she's FEELING better. last night was shit! i mean kevin. is such a fucking bastard. the way he spoke to her online.. i swear i'll get him if i see him. guys can be so heartless mann. sheesh. what an ass. so then had tuition, did well, so was able to finish early. and here i am then. messaged andrew.. he's at the fest of praise already. good for him. gahh. nick wont be online till later so. guess i'll have to entertain myself for now. this sucks.

`good enough by dodgy.

come back to me.

2005-08-05T04:42:00.000-07:00

ALRIGHTY PEOPLE.

the almighty is back. HAH. jus kidding. before i start rambling abt the happenings, i wanna scold KEVIN. you bastard. (though i doubt you're reading this.) you hurt her until like that! heartless mann. cant you like friggin SEE how much its killing her? like i said, HEARTLESS! gosh. try ripping out your own heart and see how painful it is! you stupid thing. now she's become so different!! and its all YOUR fault! she's no longer happy. she tries to be anyway. urghh i feel like killing you!! stupid inconsiderate freak. urghh. im wasting my time on you and she has been wasting her LIFE on you!! bloody asshole. anywayyy. RAINIEEE!! goshh. im glad we're back together. i mean, yah la. you know what i mean. lol. im so sorry if i wasnt there when you needed me! on your blog, you were saying you needed me and all but i wasnt online to read it and i didnt read it till now and i cant call you cuz you're in tuition!! ok im ranting. sorryae. but yah. rainie dear. try not to think so much kay? he's not worth it. (: we're all here for you, and you should know that by now yea! i still love you as always. cant wait for our outing on monday!! hee hee. its gonna be oh so funkaye balls. call me soon yea.

so anyways, i havent blogged in ages. and the last time i TRIED, but the friggin thing hung on me soo. no post. rahh. IM BORED. ok so i shall update on the happenings.

monday;
erm. i dont really remember as usual. but i dont think much happened. right? was it this monday that lester returned.. sunday, sorry. OH NO. okok. i remember. chem test! oh sucky. im so gonna fail. ok so it wasnt that bad, but still. it sucked! my chemistry 'knowledge' SUCKS. rahh. and rainie called. im not sure if it was mon or tues (sorry rainie dear!) but i remember the conversation! aha. and thats alot more important. yes. we talked alot, abt him.. and all. shannon. all that. BUT. we're back together! and thats important. heck that cheebai kev. he should die! rahh. yeps. hope she's feeling at least a teeny bit better now..

tuesday;
i cant remember neither. supposed to have geog test. but didnt. okaie. thats abt it. didnt have assembly cuz the express classes were having social studies test. yay whatever. everyone went to the gym except ME. cuz i was sick. sick sick sick!! (and i think tues was the day rainie called, not monday. hmm.) yeps. main thing abt today, was SICK.

wednesday;
biolody test today. but i didnt go to school! zaha. missed it. but mrs jalleh was so nice!! friday is my make up test day. so woke up LATE. and went to the doc. saw some old lady who made me carry her groceries. LOL. then i realized she was the woman who's granddaughter was my kindergarten friend. and she expected me to recognize her, like hello!? freak. went to the doc, got 2 days mc. heheh. yeps. came home, bored to death. watched the first part of bridget jone's diary, then got sick of it and went to watch mtv. lester came over to visit. (: he was so sweet, he messaged my mom someth like "aunty judy, ruth is sick! can i go over and visit? please?" and my mom was like yea sure. haha. my dog and him, they're having an AFFAIR!! i swear. and its so gross. he drew carissa and yu feng's name. rahh. so yeps, he went home. i sent him down.. at like 5! so late. but yea. mom was like so how long he stayed? i said three hours and she choked. oh wells. sorraye mommehhh. (:

thursday;
i came back to school! zaha. had math test. quite OKAIE i guess. hmm. okok it kinda sucked. but yea. whatever. lol. lester walked me home after school. (: fun! we took lots and lots of photos of each other. and the fishies! AND THE KITTY MINKY!! and bored me took the payphone. hey its artistic okaie! rahh. some old ladies were dancing around. pretty funny though. haha. saw my neighbour with two vjcians, they were so urghh. whatever. anyway, it was a pretty fun day. lester sent me up, then yea. after bathing i wanted to sleep but yay! rainie called!! rahh. planned for monday and all. tried to cheer her up but i dont think it worked. she told me stuff which i doubt was easy for her to say, abt the past and all. so i shared with her abt shannon. which i never told anyone really. lol. oh wells. thats kinda abt it.

friday;
which is today! rahh. normal school day. been hanging around alot lately with carissa though. yu feng and yvonne seem so close these days, and yea. lol. during pe i accidentally smashed carissa's nose with the rugby. sorraye balls! i owe you a drink aiight. hee hee. got smashed in my abs by yu feng. and elbowed by eewen!! oh goshh it hurted like fuck mann. seriously though. hmm. messaged rainie on yongxin's hp today. urghh i couldnt reply fast cuz first i had pe, then recess no time, then lit test (which was pretty okaie) then went to the ava theaterette which had no bloody reception! so sorraye again dear!! rahh. nicholas is sick. and getting better i guess. haha. lester is jealous of him.. thats depressing, really. gahh. had my make up bio test today. it was pretty easy. finished it quite fast while carissa took photos of herself. and her HAND. lame. went up to class to find yu feng still in remedial, so carissa and i went home first. met lester at the bus stop. while walking to the other bus stop, saw yu feng walking. so yea, waited for her. took 31 to bedok, i walked lester to rover. valley eight, whatever!! but then lester walked me to my bus stop instead. so home, called rainie. she sounds better but yea. sighh.

so thats the happenings. oh i have to email bee. i havent done so in god know's how long. rahh. why does blogskins.com have so many on the superstar thing? and initial d?! GOSHH. get over it mann!! eesh. there's nothing nice as usual on the stupid site. tmr gonna meet lester for church! yay. then on sunday, mom's going to malaysia again. then monday with rainie. then tuesday national day. bring on the holidays babehh!!

(oh goshh, this quote is funny: "i went to pick a flower for you but it turned out to be a venus fly trap and it bit my head so i killed it and got you this piece of grass instead.")

rainie: call me asap okaie!!

`ocean drive by lighthouse family.

im back!!

2005-07-29T05:45:00.000-07:00

so many things to say! and i dont know where to begin. gah. jus had a huge family fight. but more of that later. hee.

monday;
last time i saw lester. school felt so long!! rahh. carissa didnt come to school. class was alright i think. i cant remember. hmm. after school, walked with feng to the bus stop. she waited with me for a while.. but yea, she had to go first. lester came soon after though. took bus home. went to 7-11 and saw my housekeeper walking back. rahh. mom was home. so i asked lester come up. he said it was 'rude' haha. so yeps. sorta played with the fishies at the pond. hahah. then yeps. i went back home. so did he. at night we messaged like alot. (and i wont see him till next week) so yea. miss him heaps. was a sad goodbye. LOL. this sounds so stupid. so yea, messaged clare and everyth too. called prash, i think. i cant remember!! rahh. main thing, lester's going and sad goodbye. hahah.

tuesday;
lester left. like 7 am in the morning. but he still messaged me though. carissa still didnt come to school. i got my period during class time. how unlucky. but yea. normal day, blahh. went home early for once. lol. yea. nothing much for tuesday. i cant remember!!

wednesday;
ooh ooh. yvonne, yu feng and michelle all got theirs too. its kinda freaky in a way. zaha. anyway. carissa STILL hasnt come back to school yet. neither did mrs sng. she was on course. hurray for us then. nothing much too for wednesday. or i jus forgot. whats wrong with me!? rahh. oh. clare and i have been messaging loads. lol.

thursday;
normal school day. carissa came back. yay. she's still pretty sick and all though. anyway, after school went to meet clare, debra, yulica and sarah at dhoby ghaut. lol. its so retarded!! went to plaza sing. debra is spastic like me. and yulica. aww. clare was a bit weird though. she lent me the make up girl. and was supposed to lend me her spare hp but her parents didnt allow so too bad. guess she was kinda distant cuz she was afraid i'll get her or someth. rahh. went to starbucks, sarah and i shared a drink. rather, i drank most of it. hmm. she was kinda obsessed with her guitar picks so we left her there. saw soo jing and her boyfriend. had a fun time. (: was good to see my wife again.

friday;
oh fun day. perversed day actually. zaha!! made plans with mazin. classes were okaie. english was pretty dumb. 'offally good' was my recipie. he said the name was interesting. hmm. after school carissa had remedial for math, since she didnt come to school for so many days she couldnt catch up. after school went over to mazin's house. on the bus sat with diyana. okaie. supposed to follow us and all but ended up not. zin's house is funkaye. lol. used her comp while she bathed and all. rahh. read rainie's blog and all, but more of that later. zin asked me if that was my blog and i said no, and told her a bit abt rainie. (: then we went to bugis. crapped all the way! took a bus down to taneh merah (however you spell it) then yep, bugis. saw many webbers!! rahh. we were so perversed mann. sick. lol. at bugis searched for a present for zin's friend. guess who i saw!! RAINIE!! rahh. and being the overreactive, loud, annoying me, i did the whole OH MY GOSH shebang. only recognized her and her other friend yongxin. rainie looked so pretty as usual. zin bought flip flops from ripples. funkaye!! and we settled on 2 pairs of earrings for her friend. had so much fun! haha. went to buy bubble tea, and we made this really perversed joke. and we when we turned we saw the guy (he's old) staring at us. whoops. so he was like ok i'll pretend i didnt hear that, and we all laughed. how lame. took bus home, zin went off before me. reached home pretty late really. rahh. got my phone back already, gonna get a new number and all tmr. not going to church tmr, have to study. RIGHT. but really, cas are all next week so. and yee teng cant make it anymore. lol. had a huge family fight jus now. talked to katie abt it. no one fun is online!! except nicole. talking to joshua now. and ive been reading alot lately. as in ALOT. alot more than usual. how freaky.

3 and a half days down. 2 and a half more to go.

`holiday by green day.

cafe cartel, people?

2005-07-24T01:01:00.000-07:00

oh happy day, happy day.

ok maybe not. went to cafe cartel for lunch with mom and dad. i had to rush so much. my comp was still on, halfway changing, messaging lester, phone was ringing, baby was barking. and so on! rahh. felt like kicking my dog. negh. so went to pick up mom at parkway, and decided on where to go. ended up at cafe cartel. like i said. saw justin, christopher and michael. aww. the cute trio. mom kinda forced me to sign up for the student card thingy. dad kept ranting abt the ribs and how good it was but when i tried it i almost puked. i mean its okaie, but the gravy was horrid. no offense. then went to secret recipie (how the hell do you spell that?) and bought sis's soupish thingy. went to pizza hut to buy my dinner. (:

then went home to put all the take aways back. spilled water. (why am i saying all this) actually spilled alot. negh. then went back to the car. dad sent me to parkway, and mom to city plaza. walked around, bought my magazines. (rolling stone, in case you were wondering) my book finally came. and i didnt have enough money, so i asked andrew to save it till next week. again, why am i saying all this? hysterical rubbish. met up with lester. for a while. very short while. walked around, saw the cutest kitty minky plushie. rahh. then went home. how boring. no one fun is online. maybe i should play solitaire with ron. am i that bored? rahh. sis jus went out with kenneth. im kinda getting sick of my blogskin already.. rahh.

`black and white by three dog night.

hail the cookies.

2005-07-23T20:14:00.000-07:00

doing stupid quizzes on friendster.

talk about boredom. im bored all over again. slept like, at three last night. rahh. so yea, woke up. at abt eleven. and im hungry!! so so hungry. calculated my math results for tuition and hmm. got abt 5 marks more than the last time. oh well, she promised not to scold me cuz i put in alot of 'effort' last night. hmm. changed blogskin last night. nicole took the other one. i should stop asking her for her opinions on the blogskins i choose. rahh. oh and yesterday was joel's birthday. he gave me a brief description on the hell he was in; band practice.

talking to nicholas, nicole, katie!! erm. yea. fun fun. lester and nick are stressing. projects and all. fucked up teachers! rahh. aloysius isnt online. he's working. urghh. last night ron played solitaire with my sis. it so so stupid. ron was so polite and all. surprising. tried sending the file to jessica through email but it wont work. so sent it through msn. godd she was patient. nicole tried sending me her video of ruffles and dippy. too long so i cancelled it. haha. then i remembered the time where we talking abt making a video with nate and sabrina in it and all.

oh well. finally going for lunch now. blog later. (:

`pulling teeth by green day.

back to blogger.

2005-07-23T09:00:00.000-07:00

im getting pop ups on chinese medicine.

yea as if that matters. woke up like three times today. at eight, nine, and ten. then woke up officially at eleven. rahh. guess i couldnt wait or someth. read adrian mole for a while. then dad came back. yay. supposed to go marina for lunch, and check out cds at depot. but it looked like it was going to rain, so dad didnt really wanna go so far. so we went to kallang, to eat and to get sis's skirt done. hmmm. then went to parkway. there was this dog in giordano. so adorable! lol. went to cold storage. blah blah.

then went to meet lester at the bus stop. waited quite a while for him. in the bloody hot sun. i was going to melt! rahh. so yea, he arrived, and we went for service. jasmine and paul messaged us. ruiwen was there today. (: topic was abt homo. rahh, prash? had fun. then met jasmine. she seems a bit weird. lol. but she's nice i guess. walked around parkway, ate at macs. yvonne was working. hahah. teased her. and samson. how annoyingly cute. went to the taxi stand after. lester's parents were gonna send him home. yay whatever. headed for home myself, but saw mom at the bridge though. so went home with her. then here i am. finding a new template. tuition later, as usual. i miss the toothballs! rahh. im writing so little these days. why! is my life so completely boring already. sighh.

oh yea, big news. lester's leaving on tues. so monday would be the last time i see him for a week. aww. other big news, belle and sarah have been updating me abt yulica, clare, and deborah. its so sad! so so sad. and the rumour is going around.. hmm. have to arrange sometime to go out with belle. and meet up sarah.

ooh this layout is funkaye.

stupid tagboard.

2005-07-21T06:18:00.000-07:00

i have no idea what to write for an opening.

monday;
school was normal. nothing much. after school went to bedok interchange with yu feng and carissa. bought my top up. for two dollars less. mmm. went to carissa's house after that. she bathed and changed while i used her computer. rahh. ate. then headed to my house. it was raining and she slipped on the drain. aww. reached my house. carissa thinks baby is cute. but scary. the stupid thing barked like forever. urghh. took lotsa photos and all. had fun. crapped around. helped her make her blog and all. rahh. then she went for her tuition. (:

tuesday;
the beginning of book and music week. the only good thing abt it (to me) was the mime. samurai romeo. funny. urghh. the whole day was crappy. yu feng too. sighh. but anyway. i have another wife now. xiao xuan. aww she's so adorable. yea. after school lester walked me home. aww he looked adorable in that jacket. weird, but cute. aaron came too. yea. at night had kickboxing. last day. aww. jus realized that dan is 38. and i thought he was 28! vast difference. oh wells. gonna miss it.

wednesday;
didnt go to school. was apparently sick. had a fever in the morning. yea. slept the whole day. lol. nothing else to do anyway. called prash at night. and sarah. jolyn told me that shannon called 2 weeks ago. and she didnt tell me till today. rahh. he messaged me at night too. he has a girlfriend who's older than him. much older. good for him then. helped nicholas with his azche blog. haha. wednesday is boring.

thursday;
today. last day of the book and music week. not bad. lol. last part wasnt so bad. and the dance performance right, they performed it twice. due to 'popular demand.' really? rahh. crapped with charlyn and stephanie chailert. met lester after school, walked home. fun. i miss him. so yea. nothing much. talking to nicole and clare now. called sarah jus now. hmm. oh bee called jus now too. (: yay! i miss her. talked for a while. crapped alot. yea.

tagboard's gone. lol. clare is so right. they're evil stupid things.

life sucks.

2005-07-17T07:52:00.000-07:00

life sucks at the moment.

my dad's in fucking pain and durr, its hurting ME to see him like that.
my mom's also in fucking pain. stupid joints.

my relationship with lester is WHAT. anti-communication.

nicholas is mad and all over his project. and the people who are so stuck up and wouldnt even help him do the damn shit, and leave him alone to do the whole thing. they take credit for crap they dont do. its seriously so so unfair.

all this talk abt death and everyth. im so sick of it. keep piling it on people.

sarah and her problem with felicia and yulica.
sis and her kenneth.
prash and all his problems.
bee and her shit phone thing.
tony and his stupid taxi.

fuck it la. all you people suck.

`good enough by dodgy.

so bored.

2005-07-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

MY STARS.

i am so so bored. talked to amanda jus now.
she's awesome. (:

the cha cha group has drifted!! rahh. i guess all good things must come to an end sometime. sighh. anyway, bored. as usual. changed my blogskin jus now to my older one. the one where you have to type what you want and all that. but i changed it back. for some reason. im seriously bored. and no one fun is online.

this seriously sucks mann.
ooh a message.
SAVED BY RUIWEN. (: thanks balls.

`are we the waiting by green day.

ruffles the sheep.

2005-07-17T00:10:00.000-07:00

nicole is mean. so very mean.

oh wells. woke up four times today. all times fell back asleep. mmm. had a nice dream last night. lol. slept at like three last night. morning, whatever. was on the comp the whole time. changing my friendster profile. its a poem written by yours truely now. yea it sucks la whatever. anyway. went for lunch at simei-changi today. right. today so far is boring. sighh. so yea, came home. searching for a new blogskin now. as usual. im in a rut la. gahh. tmr going out with carissa for a while. to her house, then parkway, then my house. hee.

RUFFLES is so so so cute.

aishh. stupid nicholas. lol. nahh actually stupid physics teacher. he's evil. come to think of it. all teachers are evil. EVIL. zoop zoop.

`knowledge by green day.

annabelle's birthday.

2005-07-16T07:13:00.000-07:00

i cant believe i forgot to write this jus now.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNABELLE!! (:

yeaballs. im seriously so bored. i need to buy a top up soon. and there goes my allowance. sighh. have to help out tmr cuz no one is. urghh. goddaddy not gonna be there. ohohoh wanted to say jus now. saw lester. the older one. yes yes. i have nothing else to blog abt. rahhs. ooh nice song. yea ok shuttup ruth. byebye.

`bittersweet me by r.e.m

retarded ruth. right.

2005-07-16T05:45:00.000-07:00

i only have small prawns that look suffocated. that isnt sexy. (filling the stupid space up)

i laughed till i almost cried. that was by nicole btw, she started of with giant sexy prawn. then she said she was hungry. so i told her to eat a giant prawn. and then she said that. LOL. so funny but yea. anyway anyway. today was fun. (:

woke up late. as usual. but by the sound of the stupid drilling thingy on the floor above mine! rahh. so annoying. anyway. dad came back and we all went for lunch. novena, united square. its jus recently renovated. or i havent been there in so long i dont know whats going on and for all i know it was renovated last year. whichever. went for lunch at globetrotters. mom's pastor's dunno what links' restaurant. its good. really really good. yum. then went to cold storage. lol. bought berries. hahah. then went to pick up lester. yay. then dropped off mom at her cell group meeting place. and lester, me and sis went to parkway. lester and i were late! rahh. so when we went up, everyone was there and all and stared at us. godd. it was kinda fun i guess. lol. ok so new friends; grace (she's so cute. from cedar sec, and 13. mmm.) catherine (no idea what school, 13 too.) and some other girl. i forgot her name. paul, nigel, deborah.. who else. ohoh a little cute cute kid. playing the guitar with his tiny fingers. so cute! hmm. then after the service, lester and i went to parkway to walk around a bit. went to burger king to eat. saw that bitch from sec 2 walking, in the school uni. whatever. saw evelyn at kfc. she was so cute. lol. sent lester to his bus stop. then walked back to mine. rahh. and i miss him loads.

so home. and bored as usual. nicholas is at his grandmother's birthday. so i dont have anyone to entertain me. had tuition. and before that talked to nicole, and yea the prawn thingy. did a friendster quiz. out of stupid boredom! rahh. stupid hi card not enough money to send messages. annoying!! annoying annoying annoying. searching for a nice blogskin now, again. found a nice one yesterday but too many scrollbars around. sighh.

`twisted (everyday hurts) by skunk anansie.

note: song that im currently listening to now. above.

concert rocked.

2005-07-15T03:05:00.000-07:00

this week was HECTIC. hectic people hectic. but fun.

monday;
whooosh. i dont remember what happended on monday. school. oh yes combined assembly. lol. thats kinda all that i remember really. i think i saw him after school but i cant be sure. my godd. lol. OH. nicholas and i kept messaging during class. hee hee.

tuesday;
GOOD CHARLOTTE CONCERT. oh my it so rocked. seriously. so good. joel madden is so cute. lol! we had good seats already but with the binoculars WOW. it was even better. the standing people got crushed. literally. so dumb lol. there's this little caucasian kid sitting next to me and he's so adorable. small and cute. nice package. dad was funky! lol. seriously. and the guy next to him was even funkier. in short, it seriously rocked la. too bad for all those who couldnt go. (: before that. school was aiight. didnt go for kickboxing, durr. i mean , kickboxing or good charlotte concert? dont be stupid. thats abt it then.

wednesday;
again, i dont remember what happened on wed. hmm. amazingly, i still had my voice then. hee. oh yes. we had a different teacher for math. mr desmond lee. hah! yvonne was like why not mr kuah. lol. then carissa got sick in class. send her down. i went up and down to the general office for abt 6 times. i shall not elaborate on that. chem sucked as usual. chinese is getting so boring. and i thought she was a nice lady. jesslyn lent me the gc cd. (: met him after school. hahah so funny! he didnt know the different between a swing and a see-saw. it was so dumb! i had to ask to girls to convince him. lol. so now he owes me 5 bucks.

thursday;
our one month anniversary. (: yays. he was meeting aaron later. so we hung out for a while at my house. then we went to his house. bigbig. lol. kinda anyways. messy! rahh. he has so many trophies and medals. that show off. lol. then he sent me off in a cab while he met aaron. life story alert!! this sucks. lol. he gave me someth homemade. that test tube thingamajig with gel in it and my name in macaronni letters. (did i spell that right? ok pasta.) how sweet! i gave him a ty beanie and a funky card. rahh. called belle and sarah at night. tried planning for belle's brithday but she was kinda busy. so forget it. ive been trying to plan it for like so long and so much and ahhh. she doesnt really seemed bothered by it. sighh. ): oh yes. we watched 'much ado about nothing' during lit. half of it anyway. nice.

friday;
which is today. school was school. watched the other half of the play. almost finished. but stupid social studies got in the way. after school went to bedok with yu feng and carissa. rover, as carissa calls it, and valley 8, as lester calls it. met lester and aaron. we had to wear his jackets and tees to get in. LOL how lame! yu feng wore the tee. carissa and i wore the jackets. we looked retarded, seriously. felt so awkward. i would play but i was wearing my stupid uni! so i didnt wanna anymore. lol. carissa got kinda pissed abt that cuz she really wanted to play. oh wells. left the place and went to macs with carissa. yu feng had to go already so hmm. ate, then lester walked me to the road. that took abt a minute or less. aaron was calling him back so. yeps. went home, bathed, slept. and here i am. talked to nicole. so funny. i mean nate is high and crazy again. bevv is cute. she said both our names sounds like ferrets. and her cat was on fire, only she doesnt have a cat. so i think she's high too. talking to nicholas now. hahah. ive been messaging him so much during class. boredom gets the better of me.

rahh. i have to go on a testimonial spree again.

who are you?

2005-07-10T04:11:00.000-07:00

i hate it.

i hate the fact that i dont know who you really are. i hear it from other people but i dont hear it from you. i see you, i touch you, but i dont know who you are. why? is it like so horrible to open a tiny bit of yourself; to show me what you are? whats beneath that skin that you hide, when its quivering with excitement to let go? (holy shit this is starting to sound like some porno book.) it kills to know that they know what your made of but I dont. i rip open my flesh and let you see my insides and i scream my name. and yet i get no response. i cry when i see the scarlet tears flow from your sinful hands onto your scarred knees.

kiss me quick; show me yourself.

out with carissa.

2005-07-10T02:31:00.000-07:00

hello! (:

zaha. jus came back- outing with carissa. fun! yays. woke up so early today. cuz of the stupid aircon leaking, made so much noise. urghh. so yea. read a toy for juliette, mann its good. then dad came home. blah blah. left the house at about 11.20. dad was in an unusually cheerful mood. think he jus murdered at freak employee he has. oh wells. walked to the bus stop and took 31 to bedok. carissa was late. mmph. she was wearing the same racer as me. aww how cute. right. took a train to somerset.

cine; long john silvers.

so not enough. i was like broke. and so was carissa. so yea. ate. orchard was unusually un-crowded today. are they scared of the bomb blast shit. lol. carissa was anyway. hee hee. went to heeran next. took neoprints. after taking, had to decorate the pictures right. turned out we waited at the wrong side of it, and lost so much friggin time. so when we finally realized it was the other side, we only had a minute to decorate the whole thing. lol. it wasnt so bad, the prints were kinda nice. lol. walked around. SCANNED PEOPLE. how funny- strangers seemed so attracted to us. (x

went to take a train to orchard. OHOHOH i forgot to mention, we saw WENDY! maha. she was gonna meet deon. we saw her at bedok. as in the beginning of the expedition. lol. anyway anyway, orchard. walked around wisma. then we were supposed to go pacific plaza, but it was like raining so heavily! sighh. so we skipped on pacific plaza and wanted to go parkway. so at the shelter, we were deciding how to cross the road. we were rushing abt finding people to share umbrellas with. we decided on one and before i knew it carissa ran to her and shared the umbrella. and i was standing there alone. i thought she abandoned me. but tada, she came back with the umbrella for me. (: how nice of her! lol. so yea. the stupid bus stop shelter wasnt big enough, and there was like so many people squishing together. and durr, we got wet. bus came, boarded it. so funny!! garbage and feet. LOL. dont ask. throughout the ride i heard life stories. lol. lester was at parkway, so we arranged to meet.

it was sunny at parkway, thank godd. met lester, then went finding for a posb bank thingy. hmms. went to kfc for a snack. lol funny. ate, then walked around parkway again. went to buy cookies for lester. MEANIE. he didnt share. nahh but he bought alot for me yesterday so.. i shall forgive him this time. (x went to mini toons. saw the same lady that time when i went with yvonne. haha. crapped with her and all. she's cute. then went to send lester off outside to meet his mom and sis. they look so so different from each other. like from different countries and all. lol. walked across to bank the cheque. then walked all the way back to macs to pee. lol. then decided we got nothing else to do so went home. bought that dollar bubble tea, and saw celeste. carissa's sister that is. lol. then it started to rain again. so rushed to the opposite bus stop. i took my bus first, and when i reached my bus stop is kinda stopped raining. good. and surprise surprise, i could hear baby barking from downstairs.

so then here i am.

crapping with nicholas. talked to clare jus now. she's so adorable!! zaha. and i still havent found any nice blogskin. annoying la. thanks for the sweet testimonial nicholas. (: lol. we were sending each other testimonials back and forth. talk abt boredom.

carissa owes me one dollar.

new format.

2005-07-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

HELLO. (:

im am gonna try some new format thingy.

like lotsa extra blank lines and all that. lol. this is credited to GRACE. thanks balls. hahah she doesnt know im ripping her format off but aha. im giving her credit here. anyway nicholas jus messaged me. rubbing it in again la, having fun while im bored outta my mind. sighh. the world is filled with mean people. and idiots. found some nice new blogskins. but one of them is PINK, others are not me or someth lol. found green day ones!! so so awesome. but there was someth wrong with it. lol. as in the blog alignment was so out. urghh. and there is nothing else.

NICHOLAS IS DRUNK. i swear he's high.

why are all the blogskins on friggin initial d that movie? is it like so good that its worth about 50 blogskins on them which most are exactly alike? urghh. dont get me wrong, i dont preview them lol. i have magical powers to see. sighh. im so so bored until like that! im hallucinating. lol yu feng, a bear! right ok.

lester bought me cookies jus now. (: what a sweetie. i havent eaten them yet though, surprisingly. usually i gobble the whole pack up. what willpower i have. nahh i think im jus too lazy. lol. maybe i'll eat them while watching friends later. or maybe i should save them for a rainy day. ohmygodd im seriously bored. OH RIGHT, now lester cant message me for some godd damned reason. sighh. people are so mean to me.

im listening to freak chinese songs now. sighh. im pathetic. went on a testimonial spree jus now. for my baby, nicholas, and actually thats abt it. friendster keeps changing its format and all that. its so annoying, seriously. andandand the worse of all, they dont have much green day fans accounts. hell they have so many good charlotte ones; joel and benji. maybe i should create one. jus for green day lovers. hee hee.

i still cant find any good usable blogskin. stupid ugly shit ones. freedom of speech! i can say that and get away with it. zaha. *slaps self. someth is seriously wrong with me la. its 11.44 (oh what a pretty timing) and im counting down the days to the good charlotte concert, lester and my annivarsary, annabelley's birthday (oh a celebration!) and christmas. christmas! zaha. presents galore. i seriously hope i can get the fugging ipod by then.

screams.

if i see one more of those initial d blogskin i swear i will sue that blogskin company. rahh. feel the wrath of a retarded ruth! zaha.

extreme youth service!

2005-07-09T05:49:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

woke up pretty late today. i slept late last night anyway. was so bored last night i burned 80+ songs. sighh. how pathetic. then finally nicholas came online. he kinda cheered me up so yea. thanks mann. so today. called lester in the morning. chatted a while. yay. then dad came to pick us up for lunch. went to parkway. sis is like so moody this MONTH and its really getting to dad. sooner or later he's gonna burst though he claims he wont. poor guy. so went for lunch, then walked around. waited for steffi and lester at the bus stop. then went for the extreme youth service thingy. it wasnt so bad. there were very few people though. like 10? twelve. whatever. but it was pretty alright. after that walked around parkway, steffi left. so it was jus me and lester. (: he bought me my cookies. yeaballs!! sat down on the stairs and ate pretzel. lol. met a new friend, ruiwen or someth like that. she's 24 and yea. acts fifteen. nice enough, lol. went to the other youth service which was at five, and met a pretty boy, eugene. he really was pretty! but too old hahah. saw xinni, clara, serene, jasmine, natasha, jaqueline.. all from kc. MANN. sighh. only serene and xinni saw me anyway. so it doesnt matter. left in like half and hour. cuz lester had school dinner shit and i had tuition later. so mom went home with us. then i had tuition. which wasnt so bad again lol. and then here i am. tmr gonna sleep in till abt eleven, going out with carissa. yays. the weather is so damn hot la. urghh. nicholas's testimonial for me is so lame. negh. mann i miss the toothballs. lol. i aint as crappy as them lately. SIGHH. how sad. its a sad sad day for the toothballs. (x

all you fools out there.

2005-07-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

im pissed. as in seriously. cuz of so many stupid things that arent worth to be pissed off at! urghh. i really dunno what to do. im so frustrated!! belle jus called me and she said i usually sound so happy and all. yah. okaie. im not happy now! sighh. i guess i should elaborate. to the people who actually visits this damn thing. sarah. im upset with you. really. lol. i mean. im honestly sick and tired of all the cutting you do. its none of my business i know. but the way you brag abt it, come on mann, are you so proud of the scars? the scarlet tears that drips down from your sinful hands, the after-taste that lingers on your tongue, the scars that proves no justice but only wrong, the reality that never found its way through you. oh whatdoyouknow, a start of a new poem. whoopeedoo. and the guys. i guess its alright to be boy crazy but you're wrecking your friendships by doing it. remember? you didnt tell her. you should, you really really should. but then again, its none of my business. honestly, i really wonder, what does cutting do anyway. make you feel good? that is so. inhuman. if it makes you feel happy. you wanna get high take drugs or someth. urghh forget it. im wasting my time on this. i should keep quiet now. BUT IM PISSED. SERIOUSLY. so i'll share it with my wonderful readers. share the pain balls. urghh. this sucks mann. whatever. i feel like poking my eye, stabbing myself, pulling out my hair. how utterly disturbing. i shall read abt vampires from now on.

back again.

2005-07-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

STUPID STUPID LIFE WRECKER YOU FREAK!! urghh. okaie. finally pretty much got it off my chest. that bloody CHEEBAI. im sure you're reading this. fugging hell mann. you dont know anything yet you can say all that nonsense? urghh. whatever whatever. ANYWAYS. school has been good this week. monday was a holiday so yea. three periods of math for like 2 days. is horror! no not really. chem is so suckish mann. i hate her voice. urghh. what else. we did a newspaper report thingy today. last period. and tada, my whole comp crashed in the lab when i finished the whole 500 word thingy. and i had only five minutes till end of school. i shoved pei yi out of her chair and retyped the whole damn thing. URGHH. but anyway, turns out half the class didnt finish on time so. it didnt matter. been going home with carissa and yu feng.. and guan lin. mah. and yvonne. someth's wrong with me. im letting my anger linger and linger and linger.. yea whatever. was hurt by him. jealousy. it sucked! but like come on mann. you dont talk like that to your 'sisters' or whatever right. its so. whatsthatword. whatever. someth is wrong with me! AGAIN. someth is always wrong with me. if its not one thing its another. if its not that its someth else. shuttup ruth. shut up shut up shut up. urghh. talking to lester, belle, nicole now. waiting for nicholas to come online. helping prash with his probs. helping nic with social studies. not really but yea. tmr going to mom's church youth shit with lester and steffi. yays. took out the password thingy btw. IM NOT AFRAID TO SAY WHAT I WANT VIC. urghh. whatever. im pissed all over again!! someone cheer me up. no wait. i'll jus poke my eye and stab myself. YEABALLS. how entertaining. sighh. someth is seriously wrong with me.

i have returned.

2005-07-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

hello!! (:

zaha. i have returned. and so many things to blog abt, as usual. i even wrote a list for it! how lame. school has been so relaxed, cuz of the emdd thingys. mmm. yu feng hasnt been in class for like, practically the whole week so yvonne and i had bonding sessions. (: yeaballs! anyways. firstly, THANKS GRACE! for doing the password thingy and all. i love you balls! (x zaha. ok anyway. in the boredom of school, i wrote a stupid story. lame, crappy, all that la. mmm. i miss yulica. like alot. lol and ANNABELLE. my dearie. i miss them so. talked to her today though. i mean belle. yea but that later. letsseee. nat is mean! he's a big fat meanie. lol. so letssee. today is youth day, holiday. boring! went to parkway for a while. supposed to go out with prash but hahah. stupid anywayyy. mom met lester. on saturday. yeps. went pretty well hahah. sunday went to service with dad. long winded freak. hahah. saw uncle dennis. he said i grew. LIKE DUHH. adults can be so so stupid. anyway. today today today. annabelle called, she has a new hp and is so cute. haha. miss her mann! so yea, talked to her. caught up and all.. blah blah. sarah went out with vince today! i was so surprised yesterday. and prash moved on. LOL. oh yes. im going to the good charlotte concert. yes hello! im going to the good charlotte concert! lol. ok. victor is stalking me but i dont care. he's an asswipe who has nothing else better to do. so fuck him. lol. whatever anyway. i have nothing else to say anymore. oh yes. went to gym jus now. patrick cut his hair. looks weird. lol. he asked for my number. ok why am i saying all this? yea anyway. talking to nicholas and yulica now. aww. and alex. mygodd. he started talking to me and that is so so scary. saying abt his hair and everyth. mygodd. i think im taking out the password thingy. its kinda irritating.. so yea. hahaha. i got nothing else to blog abt already. so. hmm. haha miss popular strikes again balls! tagboard. okok byeeee.

INVADING.

2005-07-01T09:06:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE. im invading ruth's blog. xD HAHA. ok dearest ruthie TOOTHBALL; as i am void of entertainment i shall post in here. (: HAHA. how great thou art.

YEAHBALLS.

overflowing rivers of POOP.
sheer happiness. (:

ALRIGHTY THEN, shall take my leave now.

P.S. you can delete this is u wanna. AHHA. i wont feel offended, DONT WORRY. ;D

P.S. PANG SAI. (: HAHAH.

wheeee.

2005-06-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

hello! (:

zaha. school has started. and it aint as bad. the timetable changed and all, but honestly, its alot better. in a way. lol. lester fetches me home after school. (: how sweet. my tagboard is flooded!! hahah. im missed. and miss popularity strikes again. right anyway. change of teachers, mr meyer as our english one and miss zhen as our chinese one. ohmygodd she is so much bloody better than mdm lee, seriously. lol. tmr and fri and sat is emdd. im not going. and mrs sng said she's gonna do 'things' to us if we dont go. right. tmr yu feng is going for practice and i will be alone! lol actually half the class will be gone. pretty pathetic. and the teachers too, so far we havent really done much. sleep, slack.. all that. hahah. you know in the beginning i had so much to blog about but now i dont. sighh. anyway. yu feng, carissa, yvonne all met lester already. haha it was so stupid. they approve, so ok. good. adding green day and good charlotte related people on friendster now hahah. i might be going to the good charlotte concert. aint confirmed. vic has 2 tickets! urghh. but i hope my mom can get them free too. anyway. I MISS YULICA. my babe. my wifey! hahah. right. prash asked me to go out on mon. with the group, that is. hmms. and sat carissa asked me and yu feng to swimming at her place. uhhuh. have to write a testimonial for grace. hahah. i miss my toothballs. joyin's birthday jus passed. like the day before yesterday. hmms. ok lame that thing on friendster. lame lame lame. urghh. im bored. watched friends till so late last night. talked to vic jus now. surprising, really. anyway. lester is sooo cute sometimes hahah. (that was on impulse) today we walked home, and his friend was tagging along at the back and i didnt even realize it was him. aaron. so it was so spastic la. urghh. but he stayed with me till like so long. and poor aaron was godd knows where dying. urghh. im annoyed for some reason. and that girl! that bitchh!! havent found her yet though. but i will. dont worry yulica honey. (: i'll get her. for you. and nat. lol. i miss prash. LOL. that was sick. but true! i miss the holidays, rather. oooh bee replied. hmms. im writing rubbish! nonsense. jus cuz i forgot everyth i wanted to blog in the beginning and am writing shit now.

oh my gosh.

2005-06-26T03:14:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

oh mann i think im sick. cuz im getting kinda excited to go to school tmr. (shrieks) nooo. ruth oh ruth where have you gone. right ok. anyway yes i am pretty excited!! wheee. lame la. but yea, its gonna be fun getting back at that bitch. yulica and nat are okaie now. (: no thanks to that lame ass. hee hee. we shall gang up on her! yeaballs!! (x cant wait to see yu feng. i miss her loads mann. haha and lester will send me home after school so. i wanna see how he looks like in his uni. weird, im sure. he's mean to meee!! hahah. he's an asswipe la. (x searching for blogskin again. im getting sick of my current one already. joyin doesnt like it much anyway hahah. i cant believe i have tuition later!! its the freaking last day of the holidays and boom i have shit tuition. sighh. hahah this is so cute! jimbo jonesss!! yea ok. and why is everyone advertising school is opening again tmr? lol. i will miss my wife yulica oh so much!! lol. and prash.. and everyone else. (i sound like im migrating. eww) hahah and that stupid fuckalo, she deserves what shes getting now mann! whoohoo. all her problems are slowly piling on. YEABALLS!! im not that evil but hmm. eating my dinner now haha. multi tasking!! urghh. i feel so lethargic.

school starting!!

2005-06-25T23:29:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

last day of using the comp. i shall use it till it burns maha. mmm right. last night was freaky. lol. okok so yesterday. woke up late, lol. called lester. talked abt last last night. hmm. then dad came back and we all went for lunch. no actually we dropped sis off at temasek poly for her debating thingy whatshit. then we went to tamp for lunch. ate at long john silvers. hmm. walked around, bought my skirt (like finally mann!) and mom bought sweats, some top and a watch. aiyeee. then realized sis went home by herself. (she's getting creepier by each passing day) so. we went home. at the bus stop in front of our house unc robert and aunt alice were there so we picked them up to our house. mom and i rushed up, changed, pack stuff and wheeee ran down again. went to aunt helen's and unc francis's house. hung around for a while, then sis and i went to swim. the pool was so frickin cold. but was pretty fun. kinda got darker, or i hope i did. got up to eat COOKIES. so so good. and i didnt wanna go back in but sis kinda forced me soo.. for her sake i did. urghh. went back up and showered and all. met ingrid, their 22 year old daughter. lol she's cute. then watched simpsons. then ingrid's boyfriend and his friends came over. they brought the doberman. her name is becky. (: isnt that so cute. but it was abused when it was little so it was terrified of us 'strangers' so yea. gene was good looking, lol. really! i mean kev was ingrid's, gene was the hottest and derek looked like a china tourist. but yea. haha talked to gene and all. then ate dinner. then i kinda fell asleep i think. but anyway we left the place about nine plus and sent unc robert and aunt alice home so by the time we got home it was abt 11. (my godd) called lester abt 11.40 and yea he was gonna sleep. watched csi for a while then i slept. life story in a day lol. so today, i woke up at ten. helped out mom's church but yea nothing much to do. was late anyway, and rush hour was pretty much over. dad came to pick us up abt 12.15 and we went to queensway. ate at macs and oooh the music posters were awesome. like elvis, beatles, bee gees, diana ross, eric clapton, elton john (it was him and his boyfriend. how cute!) and blah all that. then went to buy my shorts. yay. then. home. and here i am typing nonsense. called yu feng hahah i miss her sooo. cant wait to see her tmr. then tried calling lester but he didnt answer so yea. hmms. talking to sarah and marissa now. sort of. bee replied, hmm. rubbish la. tonight got tution, eww. im so not ready for it mann. im kinda excited abt school tmr hahah. new timetable supposedly on schooldna shit but dont have! sighh whatever. cant really be bothered la. and i havent finish my holiday homework. oh wells. (x

day out.

2005-06-24T06:17:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

got back home about eight. pissed off at dad again as usual. negh. anyways. today was pretty fun. hahah. woke up at like 7.30 cuz people downstairs were talking so bloody loudly. but went back to sleep and woke up again by prash's sms. walao. he was pissed, the whole message was 'fuck' here and there. so hmms. he asked me to call immediately. so i did. turns out he was pissed with sarah. who else? anyway. he said that she kept changing the venues and times and all and so he was pissed. right. anyway, called lester, chatted a while. then watched boring tv again. then left home, went to parkway same place. turns out i was earlier than lester. and there was this spastic guy who was smoking and walking back and forth in front of me and making really weird sounds. scary. lester arrived abt 5 minutes later and he looked great! (x lol. he has a dinner tonight anyways so he had to dress up nicely. hahah. so yea, took a bus down to somerset to meet prash. he messaged and said he might be late so he took a cab. wasted money, we were the late ones. hahah. went to specialist centre to buy the rooster cd for yulica's bday. prash is so good to her lol. then walked back to the station, and yulica called. asked us to meet her at bishan instead. so we waited for annabelle first and when she came then we all went to bishan. went to the food court and all her bball friends were there. it was quite embarrasing really, cuz we were kinda yelling out yulica's name and all her friends stared at us. so we met her and gave her her pressies and blah blah blah. she followed us back to somerset cuz belle was meeting vincent. whoever he was. anyway. crapped like mad all the way back. took photos, blah. so fun! vince came and so yea ok. then yulica went back to bishan and we hung around for a while. then we took a train to orchard. ate lunch at wisma and then went to meet sarah. some guy named darren messaged prash saying someth like meet at 3 and prash thought it was sarah! so i called her and darren answered. it was so lame when prash figured out it wasnt her and so i bashed him up. (: well kinda. he was hurt so hahah. sarah came, and she didnt wear the skirt. but still, she looks better. than her usual safari clothes. hmm. we wanted to go watch a lot like love so we went to cine but the seats were all scattered around. so we ran (literally) to lido. sold out, the tickets. since we were tired and all we sat down and rested. ate the gummies hahah. then we ran again to plaza sing when we realized they were playing in ten minutes. so yea. sold out. mann!! we went to gelare cafe to eat ice cream but they were closed for half an hour. what the hell? so we checked the movie times again and realized tamp was playing it. so again, we ran to the station and took a train. when we reached tamp, we all asked lester to run up and all. hahah my poor baby. aha! there were tickets!! so we bought food and all and went to the theater. turns out we were late by abt 5 minutes? not bad la. a couple were sitting on our seats (there was ;ike 6 of us) so yea. they moved. but lester and i couldnt wait cuz the drink in my hand was numbing my hand and he was holding nachos so we sat 2 rows in front of them hahah. so lame. we were close though. (: movie was alright, pretty cheesy in my opinion. movie ended late, so we headed for home right after. prash, belle and sarah took a train. lester and i sent them off. it was like some airport mann!! like waving and hugging and all. so lame. lester sent me to the interchange and waited for my bus. then his mom picked him up for his dinner thingy. then when i was reaching home already mom called lester's phone. aha. then when i reached home dad was pissed and all but he didnt know like anyth! so i called my mom and explained but she was pretty busy so we'll talk later. urghh. stupid annoying parents. negh. so dumb la really. sat on my bed stoning and listening to alterbridge. so eww. i mean me. stoning? negh. then here i am. talking to prash now. and nicole, kinda. bored bored bored. tmr gonna swim at aunt helen's place. and dinner there, so tuition is shifted to sunday. sighh. so letssee. school is starting soon. so. june holidays. what are the accomplishments!! maha. watched quite a few movies: madagascar (twice), ghost train, cursed, a lot like love, mr & mrs smith, and batman begins. watched the whole season 5 of csi and the first season of friends. hmms. met new friends: prash, yulica, lester (kinda), belle, marissa, grace, joyin, nicholas, clare, vincent.. i think thats pretty much abt it. hmm yeps. lol. this june holidays werent so bad after all. hahah. jus wish it was longer. oh wells.

outing tmr.

2005-06-22T21:13:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

ohhh once again, miss popular strikes!! hahah right. once i came online people started talking again. wendy, nicole, sarah. ok thats pretty much abt it but hmmms. mom's still on leave, when the hell is she gonna go back? negh. no one interesting is online anymore. nicole jus went out. and im not needed at the tagboard anymore hahah, i did my share. mel's at it now. good on her. but anyways nicole was funny. or well, we were. (: hmms right. didnt go out with wendy the whole of june holidays and we were supposed to! sighh. and tmr is already friday and its yulica's bday so no. and steffi too. aieeee. tag people tag my board. its so lonely, lol. well actually with grace it will be lonely. im talking rubbish again la. nothing else to say. woke up, washed up, watched boring tv on some home to go shit, messaged lester. and here i am. bored as ever. listening to alterbridge. im gathering all the cds i have and listening to them one by one. from gwen stefani to like westlife or someth haha. or worse still, aaron carter and bardot. mann. those are like ancient already. doing some crap quiz on friendster. im so bored la. prash talking to me now about her copying him again and blah. so funny. aiyahh im so bored la. its coming to be a chanting mantra whatever shit, aiyahh im so bored la aiyahh im so bored la. LOL. thats so lame okok ignore me. aww yulispa's friendster profile is so cute. you complete/completed me. haha. and the cha cha group is there mann!! and im the first. haha yeaballs. prash is sulking again hahah. i can jus hear that spastic laugh of his, oh so cute mann. ok. i got seriously nothing else to blog anymore. rubbish rubbish rubbish!!

bored.

2005-06-22T06:33:00.000-07:00

hello! (:

yays. im bored. third time blogging today. but i cant really. cuz lots of people are talking to me. so writing these few sentences took longer than you think. lol. grace and joyin are acting retarded and lame as usual. and ronny is asking me to marry him again, hahaha. mmm. im bored. tuition wasnt so bad. but it was so long!! before that called sarah. and tried lester. but he didnt answer. or rather it was busy. wonder with who, pearlyn? yeaballs. sarah tried explaining to me what happened but prash beat me to it long time ago. but hmms. still. quite mean la. yea. friday gonna meet lester in parkway at about 11. then meeting belle and yulis and prash at somerset mrt at 12. and sarah at like 2. when the 'gathering' is over. lol. yulis is going out with her basketball friends. oh wells. her birthday. she jus found out someth really really horrid and belle and i arent supposed to tell anyone, hahah. but the poor girl la. here's hoping its a misunderstanding. sighh. poor darling lover yulispa. the cha cha group rocks mann!! hahah. grace and joyin are asking abt jeanette now. how adorable they are. so excited! hahah. baby looks like an overgrown hamster. nicole said she looks retarded but cute. hahah so funny. nothing to blog abt. annabelleyy's gone to sleep. she's sick, the poor thing!! hmm. this sucks. as in this post is so shit like. vernon blocked nicole btw last night. hahah. yea ok whatever.

love hurts.

2005-06-22T02:21:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

it hurts man!! worst thing is, you dont even know that it does. you dont even know that your the cause of it in the first place!! why, lol. its like the rotting insides turning out. mann this hurts la. hmm mm. yea whatever lol. this post has nothing! nothing like the rest of my long ones.

cha cha group!!

2005-06-22T00:22:00.000-07:00

hello! (:

first time (ok not really) coming online in the afternoon. and i was flooded with people talking to me! sighh, so popular. HAHAH. yulica, annabelle, prash, sarah, marissa. all that. aiyoo. anyway, the cha cha group is now consisting of ruthwonka (me), yulispa (yulica), annabelley lolly (belle), sarahpah (sarah), and sort of prashamala (prash) but he doesnt like his name so he's sulking and pouting now. lol so petty mann! extreme gay issue. but yea. talked abt friday and made plans and all that. so fun! i was so hyper and retarded so yea. so fun mann. hahah. hmm. woke up 12 plus today, called lester. he's doing some project at nicholas's house. with nat and vinesh. so yea, didnt get to talk much. so called prash, talked abt her and all. sad case. but hahah. so funny. my whole body is aching now!! limbs tearing apart. specially my shoulders. lol. and my abdomen area. how the hell do you spell that anyway? lol. last night sorta helped nicole with that hacker guy. its vernon, andy's friend. how annoying. but was fun la. lol. somewhat like that laura and lucy thing, but this is live! hahah. im bored now. lol. all of us are like changing our profiles and all. so cheesy but yea. ok. im bored. later got tuiton. so boring la. then tmr got pilates. some japanese instructor. hahah. its prashmelo now. hahahah. ok will blog later.

kickboxing!!

2005-06-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

jus came back from gym not long ago. kickboxing was awesome mann!! danny was nice enough. haha funny guy. now my limbs hurt. but it was a great workout. yeps. letssee. morning woke up too early by the stupid drilling outside. mmm. called lester, talked for a while. then called prash. lame but yea. hahah. went to parkway to meet lester. he looked soo cute mann! hahah. walked around parkway to find yulica's gift. NOTHING. cuz the shops werent open yet. negh. took a bus to tampines. we were so close again!! hahaha! right. walked around tamp mall, bought her someth. shall not say in case yulis is reading. (x sorry babe. then went to long john silvers to eat. that goon dunno how to cut his food! lol. i had to cut for him. right. then went to century square, ate at hagen daaz. (however you spell it) hahah we shared this double scoop thingy and finished in minutes. but we still hung around the funky sofa chairs thing. so cool. lol. mmm. then we took a bus to bedok. yea. hung around bedok stadium. then it started to RAIN. like heavily. so damn. he accompanied me to tanah merah mrt. and he couldnt bear to separate from me. how sweet! hee hee. but yea i took a train down to bishan (damn it was so fugging long) and when i reached it was so so late. and i was supposed to meet annabelley, yulica and sarah at like 3.30 and it was like so late already. so i was late, urghh. so when i reached, they werent there. so i waited a while then they still werent there, so i went around junction 8 searching for them. mann. used up my dollar calling sarah (and i jus found out her phone was confiscated soo..) yea. then i went back to the mrt station and waited again but yea. nada. and jus when i boarded the train (home) prash messaged me saying that they were there and all. mann. how sickening. went to parkway, bought my stuff then came home. dinner, then went for kickboxing. haha and yea then here i am. friday is yulica's bday, so we're gonna meet her after her basketball thingy. for a while, cuz she's going out with her other friends. practically all of us are coming; annabelleyy, me, lester, prash, sarah (probably) dunno abt nicholas, nat and martin but hmm. the whole cha cha group. yeps. then we're gonna go our separate ways i guess. yea. damn tution tmr. i tried changing days but the bitch said she rather not. but i do! freak. lol. talked to belle, yulica, sarah, prash, joshua and joyin online. still joyin, heheh. prash showed me the pic of her and i think she's really those acting cute people. eww. but whatever blows prash's skirt up. mmm. weird hacker going around. hacked into sabrina's account. yays im not bored anymore. im tagging with him. heheh. (x seeya.

gym today.

2005-06-20T07:24:00.000-07:00

hello!! (:

mann. i havent blogged in so long. feels like it anyways. and look, my tagboard was flooded! how nice. i really am loved. and lester tagged also. hahah his comp is fixed already i guess. he didnt tell me though. what as asswipe. (x anyways. im supposed to talk abt annabelle too. whom im meeting tmr. with yulis. they're both my secret lovers, aha! belle is my new found spastic babe and i love her. YEABALLS. heheh. im really hyper now. for some reason. anyways. ANNABELLE; I LOVE YOU!! (x let her know. heh. yesterday. what happened yesterday. mom woke me up, went to her church. grace havent arrived yet, so i helped out for a while. tutor talked to me and blah blah blah. wished goddaddy and pastor richard happy dad's day. hee yea. grace still didnt arrive yet, so we thought she was like dead or someth. but then tutor called her (mom forgot her phone, im on prepaid with no money so..) yea. grace arrived a while later, and we realized it was all a dumb misunderstading. mom messaged her this morning to meet us at the lobby but didnt specify which lobby, and grace thought mom meant our house lobby instead of the church's lobby. negh. went for service with grace, and the speaker was so long winded. whatever. after service went to help out again for a while. then went to popular. alone. how lame. but yea, dad came to pick us up. went for lunch at the club. sis came soon after. yeps. then we went to jb! maha. didnt buy as much as sis and mom did. spent so little for the first time. right. after that went for dinner at uncle john and aunt mary's (hahah that sound so fake) house. or was it unc chew? whatever. his children were so boring. anti-social. so after dinner i slept on the couch. heheh. left abt nine plus, cuz sis had school today. but we were stuck in a huge jam anyhoo. so long, like an hour. urghh. and lester was messaging me but i couldnt reply! lol. how dumb. got home, blah blah, showered, so didnt sleep till late cuz hair had to dry. hahah. watched csi. then messaged lester again. mmm. so that was yesterday. TODAY now. woke up late, 1.45. hahah mann. didnt eat lunch, not hungry. oh wow. went out with mom to watch batman begins in tampines. not bad. i enjoyed it. (: hahah. was quite long though, 2 hours 15 minutes? yea. aviator was three, so this wasnt so bad, hahah. mmm. dad came to pick us up after and we rushed home. ate a very very very small dinner and sis and i rushed to the gym at the club. rachel had back probs, so damn, she couldnt teach today. so we jus used it anyway. and now my limbs hurt. sighh. but it was a good work out. tmr its kickboxing! YEABALLS!! haha. tmr gonna meet lester at 11, parkway. gonna search for yulica's pressie. hee hee. then after gonna meet annabelle and yulica at bishan. how far. but yea ok. and sarah. jus realized she's coming. haha kay. talked to joshua jus now. been a while. talking to nicole and prash and belle now. hmm. yea ok. life story. i shall not ramble on anymore. (: i love lester!! 75 to go mann.

grand dinner.

2005-06-18T04:12:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

big gala dinner tonight. lol. all the people are here and getting high, laughing like mad. the way aunt helen laughs its so freaking funny. yea, so everyone ends up laughing after hearing her laugh. they're eating now and im in my room. hmm. too small table, too much food, too many people. so yea, im kicked out. i dont eat much seafood anyways, so yea doesnt matter. so hmm. this morning woke up by prash's message, that ass. lol. then i woke lester up. heheh. called him soon after for a short while. then grace came!! apparently she's back for a few weeks. leaving when school reopens. hee hee. she still looks 25 though she's like forty plus. negh. dad came to pick us up and we went to parkway for lunch. went to the upstairs food court banquet. mmm. they have an extension, which is so freaking stuffy. but yea. ate, crapped with grace, then went to get stuff for tonight's dinner. yeps. my dad went first and got some stuff and we joined him later, funny thing, he couldnt tell the difference between a LIME and a LEMON. hahah. so funny. but yea. mmm. bought the stuff then sis wanted to go walk around. went to esprit. she reserved this pair of pants, very very nice. heheh. i have such good taste. (x yea whatever. then sis wanted me to go with her to bugis and shop more and all but i had tuition at four. FOUR. how early cuz of the frickin dinner. but yea. went home, called lester. chatted for a while. yeps. then i wrote yulica's card and letter. how nice of me. hahah. on tues lester and i are going out before his training to buy yulica's present. then on friday its her bday! whoohoo. hopefully she wants to celebrate it with the cha cha group instead of her 'cindy' one. but anyways, her birthday. yeps. tuition was weird at first. but yea. i shall not say anymore details, heheh. jus got off the phone with lester. so fun. i love him to bits mann. hee hee. talked to katie online jus now. miss her. clare! hahah she's so cute. we wrote each other stupid testimonials. but yea hahha. cute la. mmm. i miss lester. talked to toothball grace jus now. miss her. talking to clare now. hahah. ok seriously somebody shut me up. my life story will go on and on and on. yea whatever. oh oh, forgot to mention, steffi's back! hee hee. she called me jus now. and we have to plan to go out. that reminds me.. wendy. we're supposed to go out next week. heheh. YEABALLS. (x

fun fun day out!!

2005-06-17T04:16:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

im gonna write my whole day. hee hee. bearv with me please. today was fun. very very fun. hahah. oh and btw, in the previous posts, 'him' is referring to lester. my own. hee. so anyways i woke up too early, guess i was too excited. either that or the phone dropping on the floor was really loud. whichever. it was too early to do anyth, so i watched the friday morning cartoons and called lester. didnt talk to him much, then called prash. (: hahah talked to him until yea. time to bathe and all. mom woke up jus as a i was abt to leave and started talking nonsense. urghh. what a greeting to my fun day out. anyways. left the house finally, met lester at parkway. (: oooh he looked so cute. we were so close. haha. bus came, we went up. stairs. that is. upper level. crapped all the way, he held my hand. how sweet! hahaha. walked slowly to meet prash at bugis mrt station tap tap (lol). yeps. he messaged me saying that everyone was staring at him cuz he was the hottest guy in town. mann. lol. he said this morning that his shirt was very very nice. it looked like a tribal outfit. hahah reminded me of gabriel. eww. anyways. went to eat lunch. had a hard hard hard time deciding. prash was so immature! haha and so was i. and lester. we ended up at kfc, and i stole fries from prash. i didnt eat much cuz i need to lose weight. i mean, lester's the same freaking weight as me. he's so skinny! and i really feel very fat next to him. sighh anyways. ate lunch, then went to check the movie times. nothing. boring. lol. it was raining! well, sorta. but we crossed to shaw towers. and i got my jeans all wet. so annoying. yea. bought tickets for ghost train at 1.30. lester paid for me. (: thanks baby. then went to search for prash's bag. we found a suitable one but prash wanted to search more. like where? thats the only bag shop around. went to that beanie shop and we started searching for yulica's birthday present. stayed there for so long. bought nothing though. haha. then went back to the bag shop and prash bought it. was discounted, so was quite cheap. then went to watch the movie, it sucks! seriously!! dont watch it. never. dont. it really sucked. but lester and i were so close. (x hahah. after the movie went back to bugis. and prash left abt 20 minutes later cuz he was gonna play SOCCER. idiot. and we were helping him pick up a girl! heheh. so lester and i sent him off. then we decided to go changi airport. no idea why seriously. when we reached, i found two girls i could take photo of. for my mom. dont ask. one was pretty, the other looked weird. negh. so yea, left the airport and i went home. lester couldnt bear to be separated from me. how sweet! hahah. took train to tampines and bus from there. so long. urghh. got home, parents not back yet thank godd, called lester. chatted for a while. then parents came home, dinner. dad jus bought me the mag and dvds. heheh. EDWARD SCISSORHANDS. whoohoo!! and madagascar again. haha and GREEN DAY. thats the best man. green day. YEABALLS. so then here i am then. miss lester. hee hee. so its now like ruth and lester, yulica and nathanial, prash and no one, sarah and no one, nicholas and no one. hahah. so mean. but yea. sarah's in bangkok now. (:

phone all day.

2005-06-16T04:37:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

been on the phone practically the whole day again. hahah. woke up 12+, stupid phone was beeping with messages and the radiation on my radio was so freaking loud so i had to wake up. called him, hee hee, talked for a while. quite a while really. went to parkway, returned stuff, bought stuff, bought lunch, came home. ate lunch. called him again, crapped like mad and all. he's still sick, on and off though. talking to me he got well. not talking to me he dies. (x heheh. talked to prash also. so funny. stupid 'wonderkid'. yea. called him again and again, was pretty mean to him. lol. i kept making stupid scenarios for him to travel to and everyth cuz i was the president of singapore. told prash that and he was like yea then im the king of the world, and he did that laugh of his which was so stupidly funny. yea. hmm right. im still looking for a decent blogskin man. hee hee natashia sent me a testimonial. waddyaknow, people really do read my friendster profile. wow. tmr going out with them; him, prash, some girl felicia and her friend. haha cant wait! provided he aint sick la. but if he still is i'll have to bring him to the doctor. im so caring pls. yea right. nicole is showing me a video now. she's so stupidly excited. right. thats so retarded la. hahah. mmm. im bored. watched boring tv again jus now. sis and i are probably going for this biotherm thingy on sunday. she got some invitaion whatever thing. mmm. mom and dad are going to jb anyways, some gathering thing i guess. i think i got my period.

oy vey.

2005-06-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

hello!! (:

hee hee. my comp is back in action. swoon. feels so good to be typing again, hahah. YEABALLS. so many things have been happening. hahah. lets start with the recent ones. he and i are alot more closer. HAHA. its so cool, he asked!! and yea. start. new one babehh!! yea kay. we're going out on fri. along with prash. aha, wonderkid! thats his apparent nickname. okok. i have to sort things out here, lol. we'll start with monday. monday monday monday.. what did i do on mon? oh yea. went to parkway. for like, half an hour. oh yea, i woke up at three. haha. thats why didnt do much. yea. TUESDAY. ohh man yesterday rocked! hahah. met prash first at bedok, at abt 1. we were gonna meet sarah like later, at tampines. so went went tamp, it was still so early. so we walked around, bought drinks, acted retarded. it was seriously fun with prash. called sarah, realized she was still in toa payoh or someth so we told her to meet us at city hall. took a train down and haha crapped all the way. took photos and all. so fun! hee hee. he messaged me, and he was already there so i told him to meet sarah first. hahah it was stupid. so yeps, met them. they were like gadget gaga!! sarah on phone talking to cecilia and listening to mp3 player, james called prash and they talked, and lester was on phone with annabelle. negh. so yea i walked away first and haha yea. stupid la. went suntec, ate at nydc. hahah prash and i shared the spaghetti. he was SO mean to sarah!! not prash, but yea him. lol. but still yea. we went to check the movie times after lunch and realized no show. so we took the shuttle bus to city hall cuz we were too lazy to walk. but seriously la, all the way to the other side?! free bus service was right in front of us some more. (: so yeps, took it down to city hall and we went ps. watched curse. HAHAHA SO SO STUPID. seating arrangements: him, me, prash, sarah. hahah. he act tough, prash act smart, and sarah was genuinely scared. when the girls screamed at the boo part i swear i heard prash too. hahah it was so funny cuz prash and i were like grabbing each other and all. sarah was all alone, poor thing. he acted tough all the way until i shocked him. heheh. movie ended later then we expected, so i kinda rushed home. lol. he took bus with me, prash and sarah went off to the trains. crapped the way home. (: how nice! hahah. went home, dad was unsually nice and mom was seemed pretty crabby so whatever. ate dinner, messaged him all the way. it was so nice, haha. watched csi for a while, then boston public. was pretty tired la, so went to sleep quite early. yea. so that was yesterday. today was pretty boring. woke up, called vic. then called him. talked for so long. planned for friday. called prash. haha, the whole day was spent on the phone. sarah, prash, him.. all that. so fun. (: he's sick though. poor thing. mmm. had tuition, tutor was stupidly in a crabby mood. probably her period. then here i am. heheh. talked to martin and ronny and ebene for a while. ooooh i missed my comp. heheh. yea kay. tmr going to parkway AGAIN to return stupis stuff. sighh. at least i wont be bored outta my mind again.

this comp sucks.

2005-06-12T05:06:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

yays. went to help out at the church again. no ym today, like i said. they're in CHINA. or issit thailand? whichever. jean, gary, jie min, and. erm. im not sure who else. but shashi didnt go. hah. yea. talked to goddaddy. caught up with him, all that. haha made fun of my mom's clothing. she was wearing hot pink for godd's sake, so gross. asian skin is not made for pink! no!! ok thats jus my opinion but please. we'll look like pink onions. anyways. ate a huge breakfast. haha. then goddaddy went for service. aunt jeanette helped me after. we packed up and all. aunt daisy was there. (: she and my mom went to the hawker centre to chat. got rid of her, hee hee. thank godd. i was at a church anyways. tutor and i kept changing days for tuition. it was ridiculous. negh. dad came to pick us all up for lunch. including aunt daisy. we went to wesly to pick up sis but then we realized she was at ps spotlight to get my styrofoam. so dad blew his top as usual. but anyways. we went to pizza hut for lunch. again, yes. hahah. before the food came and all i went to buy some stuff. sis came with and we went up to the movie place. she wanted to watch madagascar so we did. bought tickets, came back down, ate lunch, went back up, laughed like mad. cuz this guy banged into the glass wall. so stupid, he thought it was a side door next to the entrace and he rammed into it. it was hilarious. so yea. watched the movie, wasnt as good as i watched it the first time. sis didnt enjoy it. she only liked the baby lemur. hahah. yea. after the movie we went to spotlight to check the styrofoam. too big. so yea. we split up, i wanted to check stuff. so yeps. i called her later, wanted to go bugis. so we met up, walked around alot more before leaving. i bought orange flip flops from ripple. (: hahah. yea. seems big though but who cares. yea. walked around some more, sis was looking for a shadow brush. all were like 20 plus and the cheapest was 5 bucks, which was shit. heh. so yeps. bought calamari. right. in the end we didnt go bugis. too tired, no time, whatever. went home. scanned comp again, dinner, and here i am. yea. talked to prash and sarah. and GRACE. confirmed day out. watching the video of warning by green day over and over. its so nice. (: the song that is. yea. i keep having stupid pop ups which cant be blocked. so annoying. uhhuh. nicole is apparently back from melacca. yea. im still looking for a more decent blogskin. this one's too plain i think. grace cant see the posts. die. no not really. stupid stupid pop ups!! this comp's going for repairs tmr. thank godd.

yea whatever.

2005-06-11T06:58:00.000-07:00

hello. (:

hahah im back again. sudden obsession with blogging. its so hard to find a decent blogskin!! its sickening. green day green day green day!! im pretty obsessed with green day. some guy named romeo sent me a message on friendster. it ws dumb la, really. lol. yea whatever. prash is saying im sad and everyth. RIGHT. (: baby kept barking today, so we made her wear her nappies to shut her up. okok public apology, prash, is a him. first post wrote her. sorry. yea kay. im bored. sighh. i seriously cannot find a decent blogskin. almost everyth sucks! sorry. (: not dissing the creators. im in love with flowers now. or happy house blogskins. cuz thats where i met certain awesome people. (: yays. hmm. thinking of classic, black and white blogskin. like marilyn monroe or someth. audrey hepburn. beatles? haha yea. maybe someth retro. rar rar. lol sorry. jus felt like doing that. lol sarah's nick is so cute. NEED POSTERS. need lots of posters. where. i cant find any!! sighh. dont think im going with prash on tues to watch madagascar again. negh. i have to meet grace and joyin soon please!! (x grace said when we meet, i should wear a shirt saying TOOTHBALLS and carry a rose. then we changed the rose to toothbrush. (: yes. cant wait. hee hee. wrote a poem last night. no wait, morning. three plus? yea. hahah sucky la. abt that BITCH. that assholic bitch. hate her la. she's so accusive man. and she dared to call me that. yea ok. rants shall shop. (: negh. I NEED A BLOGSKIN NOW. now now now. can like, someone help me find one? please. i wont pay you but jus do it out of the gererousity which i really think you dont have in that puny little red heart thing which makes you move deep inside. (:

stupid diaryland.

2005-06-11T06:08:00.000-07:00

NEGH.
diaryland isnt working again. sighh. actually i think it is, but jus overloaded like fuck. so yes, i made a new blog. (: maha. i love greenday. oh, surprising. watching green day's minority on the music video now. pretty blurred but who cares. its rockin'. (x yays. tmr no ym, so gonna help goddaddy at mom's church. hate her!! yes her. the latter. urghh that stinkin' bitch. whatever. its so hard to find a nice template. green day related. maybe i should make one myself. HAHAH. right. im gonna ask jesslyn to. hee hee. yea ok. today. woke up at 12.30. ate lunch. waited for yu feng. yea. she came, we started on english. she cut out all my magazines for her jay chou. yea. i copied down a song for her. (why am i saying all this?) boring. helped her make her friendster and msn account. (: how cute. yea. we went to parkway in search of styrofoam balls. for the stupid chemistry. atoms and whatever. so lame pls. we couldnt find any at anywhere, so we settled on CLAY. stupid flimsy slimy clay. okok you dont describe clay like that but yah. kinda sucky la. we walked practically everywhere! went to popular, evergreen, giant, cold storage, some do it yourself store.. urghh. sickening. finally got bee's package. MY PRESENT. yes. she got me a rip curl bag and a duckie. finally. my duck. hee hee yes. emailed her already. yea. then dad and mom came home. they slept. i used the comp. boring. went out for dinner at bedok. kenneth came over. I SWEAR MY MOM TRIED TO POISON ME. seriously. bitch. yea yea okaie whatever. talking to prash now. telling her the fateful story. looking for a blogskin now too. and watching green day's longview. done with when i come around, holiday, macy's day parade.. WHOOHOO. green day rocks man. yea yea kay whatever. im jus really bored and pretty pissed. (: